Saturday, January 12, 2008
above are two videos which shows snows! The first video is me getting out of my lecture building (Wallace Building) which is the building for Geological Sciences/Environment and Geography. I saw snow the moment i stepped out. It's really cool XD The second video is of me walking near University Center. I had to walk towards a dark background so the snow could be seen in video. Otherwise the white snow can hardly be seen at all by the camera! *****After you click to download, a code will appear enter it to begin download! If you dont have a code, that means ur internet explorer has blocked the pop-up, u will need to click the yellow bar just at the top of the page that is sticking to internet explorer and select "Allow Pop-up"
http://www.filefactory.com/file/d5aed2]P1120008.AVI
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:08 AM
Friday, January 11, 2008
I live in Tache Hall....very old....built in 1911 and the interior gives you an atmosphere from Harry Potter...with it's long corridors and dimly lit stairways. This is a photo of me looking out of my room's window. The other is a photo of the main entrance. On tuesdays and thursdays, i have 3 lectures in a row in the morning in Wallace Building. On Wednesday Nights, 7pm to 10pm i have a lecture on an English Course in Tier Building.
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:55 PM
Friday, December 14, 2007
A Sweet Henna Tattoo By Nicola! For only $100, she can do one for you too!
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...as inscribed upon the runes 4:20 PM
Thursday, November 29, 2007
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Monday, November 19, 2007
Very disappointed n hurt :(
I'm not a teacher, merely a guide.
So don't expect me to teach, rather use me as a tool. =/
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:57 PM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
...as inscribed upon the runes 3:27 PM
Sunday, September 30, 2007
I feel like it's shattering into a million pieces again....
...as inscribed upon the runes 3:36 PM
Friday, September 28, 2007
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:15 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Will someone please save me!
Case 1
My grandpa have an irksome "jump to conclusions" mindset. =.=
1 example:
He thinks that i don't care about how hard is it for my parents to earn $$ because i don't know how to cherish stuff.
And why does he say that?
Because he saw me moving the chair without my legs/hands...just my body jerking it forward... u know those kind of office chairs with wheels at the bottom and a spring in the main shaft.
He says it will spoils easily.
So i explained to him that he won't see me doing it with conventional chairs like those around the dining table because those do not have wheels at the bottom and there isn't a spring to dissipate the force.
But he still insist, with his primeval knowledge of chairs(they don't have my kinds of chair back in his days), that anyone with brains know that jerking a chair like that will spoil it. WOW, i just found out that i don't have a brain! Then how can i be...writing all these???? Oh but i don't have a brain....so i can't answer that question! Ah! ><
Case 2
He thinks i don't cherish things.
And why does he say that?
Because he says i have never been poor before, poor like him, and i will never understand.
Thats means that i would forever be subject to his incessant nagging until the day i grow bankrupt, because whatever he say now, i will never understand, and he will continue to say more, just to make me understand. BUT i will NEVER undersand, because i've never been poor! Oh man... the irony!
Case 3
He always fail to understand how hard i try to keep up to his expectations and standards.
You'd be amazed by the number of things he'd have me do. And 99% of them i try my best to accomplish... most of the time not because i agree with his views, but because i don't want him to nag about it.
But i found out that no matter how well i do, i'm always in his mind , a sloppy untidy person. I SERIOUSLY think that he is those kind of person who have some sort of irrational compulsion of order. He's those kind of people who will say things like: This object MUST be placed facing THIS direction and i can tolerate no other direction!
So read this Fides, and beware. Coz i think u will have to do all these and more! But initially during the first few months, he'd be nice to you, then once he gets more familiar with u, he'll starts to act bossy and having opinions about things that concerns you, even if it's some very personal thing.
In the kitchen:
1)The sink and the basin have to be scrubbed with soap EVERYTIME u finish washing something.
2)After washing the rice cooker, leave the cover partially open to air by slipping a chopstick under it.
3) Remove the plug from the socket EVERYTIME the rice cooker is not in use.
4)Squeeze the towel as dry as you can because if he doesn't think its dry enough(which probably wouldn't be since it isn't squeezed by him), you can be sure a lecture shall ensue about you loving your hands too much.
5)If you are not using the kitchen, do remember to turn off the light, because even if you are using it 10 minutes later or half an hour later, you would have wasted lots of energy + $! =.=
In the bathroom:
1)Scrub the sink everytime u finish using it. He would scrub it once BEFORE using it and once AFTER using it. But he says u only need to do the latter.
2)Turn off the gas heater when you are not using it. (If he catches you forgetting to do that, he would bark at you non stop again and register it into his memory once which then would multiply miraculously into MANY times. However, the funny thing is that u can catch him forgetting to turn it off too.
3)Wipe the metal handle on the wall after showering.
4) Clean the mirror after washing your face.
5) Dry the sink area everytime u use it. Especially under the soap dispensing bottle.
6) Clear your hair from the sink area.
7) Clear the hair from the sinkhole in the bath tub everytime you finish showering.
8)Pour away the water from the basin underneath the toiletbowl's water tank coz it's leaking. If he have to do it only ONCE, you're dead, because he will yell "Why do i have to do it everytime!"
9)Dry the floor after every shower.
10)When you clean the toilet bowl, use the toilet brush. And be sure the toilet brush is clean!
11)Use the rightmost hanger on the back of the toilet door to hang your pants/shorts.
12) Leave the left most hanger free, unless you want to hang your bath towel there when u shower.
13) After shower, your bath towel must be taken out and left to dry on the string.
There was once when he noticed foam on the handle of the mop. I was baffled when i noticed them in the past, but i kept it to myself. Anyways, he yelled at me immediately, saying that i don't know how to tidy things up. He shouted at me so convincingly that i almost believed him, even though i sweared i didn't do it. So i kept quiet, i dare not talk back.
The next day he said he found out why: Because his soapy hand during shower always reaches for the soap, and so the foam from his hand gets stuck onto the handle.
This simple scenario simply shows how biased he is. Everything that he thinks is out of place seems to be done by me. And he'll make sure i get hell for it.
But if there is anythin i see is out of place, i'll just accept it and move on, not making his life miserable at all.
Oh one thing that concerns fans. Never turn it to full/max. He says it will spoil easily because it wasn't meant for u to abuse it that way. Oh, so pressing Speed 1 and 2 on the fan = Use. Pressing 3 = abuse. Man, i really wish there's a 4th button sometimes.
And if u mention my name to him, he will say negative things about me, because u know why? He only remembers all the things i fail to do or do incorrectly and never the things i have sucessfully and dutifully done. That's why i'm so sad.
Before, i get hurt a lot when he calls me names which i know i am not. But i learn that if u ignore him, somehow it doesnt hurt so much.
But it still hurt.
Then i realise why i feel hurt. Because i want to prove that i am not what he says i am to him! Because i CARE about what he thinks of me. So i decided: I should NOT care what he says about me. I will just continue to do what i think is right. Which includes not talking back and obeying his every order. -.-
Now i still get hurt from time to time when the tinge of conscience asks me to please him. But everytime i do that, he'll just hurt me with more words and kill the tiny voice of conscience once again.
So over the last 2 years, i lost respect for this man, whom i call Grandfather.
Because he doesn't reason with u.
Because he is short tempered.
Because he always think he is right and when u reason with him, he will say u have warped theories. Always.
Because he always pick on you for ALL THE SMALL THINGS which is totally annoying.
Because he expect you to follow his style, even though u are't him!
Because 70% of the time he doesn't speak nicely to you.
Because if u try to have some humorous exchange with him, he will slam you harshly with grumpy rebuttals.
Because in his eyes, you are a mere fledgeling, and inexperienced. SO he looks down on you, disrespects you, and what you say, he views with disdain!
Because he often jumps to conclusions and if he feels something is like that, then his impression NEVER changes.
He is VERY biased.
He only focus on your negative side, and not your positive side.
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:40 PM
What will you do if one of your loved ones have formed some sort of prejudice against your actions?
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:21 PM
Extremely pissed at why my mum have to be so inflexible.
Just because i have to be late for an hour home = Don't care about my grandpa???
WHAT KIND OF FUCKING LOGIC IS THAT???
Look, YOU are the one who taught me to do things until they are perfect, or NOT do them at all. So now i have unfinished business which i need an hour and you are calling me heartless for it?
Come on! Be more flexible! =.=
Thanks to you, my friend have to wait 3 days instead of 1 hour before my friend can use the computer. 3 whole days... all because u are so particular about that 1 hour i cannot use.
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:00 PM
Friday, August 31, 2007
Fuck.... i'm living with someone who:
1)Looks at me with an impression that i am not good in various aspects and no matter WHAT the fuck i try to do or say, i can't change his thick mindset because his impressions are forever.
2)Spews forth vulgarities from his putrid mouth the moment he sees something that isn't agreeable... which most of the time are just his personal preferences THAT just doesnt apply to another person!
3)Does NOT reason, no matter how or what bullshit stories he tell you about how he isn't afraid of anythin in his youth because he has one thing taht others don't: Reason
4)Upon trying No.3 with him will end up with MORE of No.2... because you are "smaller" than him ALOT in status so you can't compare with him even though both are also humans with FEELINGS.
5)Nags at all the small things that are just plain ridiculous.... eg. The fan should face u directly and not at an angle of 20 degrees! When i say it should face me at 20 degrees because the fan has this covering in the middle which blocks most of the wind.... i got slammed in the face with "You've only been usin fans for like what... 10 years! What do YOU know? %&*#!" Me: .....wtf?!
6)No sense of humor unless it's his own. =.="
7)Is sooooo old fashioned and unable to comprehend that the world has changed since our pimeval ancestors and that some things ought to change as well.
8)Does NOT respect your preferences or decsions as seen in No. 4.
9)Expect ppl to be like him just coz he had undergone war/suffering, in other words, he expect people to suffer like him and is jealous that ppl can openly enjoy the simple pleasures of a fan at max speed and he can't bring himself to do it.
10)Failure to comply with No. 9 ends with No. 2.
HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO RESPECT HIM?
Seriously, my respect for him plummeted since day 1 coz i reckon he doesn't respect me. And i am not going to say this to him. Because i can already imagine his response: "Respect?! What respect? You don't even know how to do things properly!"
So i am merely showing him the basic courtesy and respect for the sake of my mum, who is defnitely more open and understanding.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:53 PM
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
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Holiday Inn Winnipeg South
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Holiday Inn Fort Richmond
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You can take the following buses from the airport to the U of M: #36, 60, 61, 62, 72, 75, 76, and 78
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:33 PM
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:27 AM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Missing you DOES NOT NECESSARILY have to be a distraction. It is just a normal, healthy feeling.
It is NOT an excuse as a distraction from studies.
If i get distracted, I just REMIND myself that "Hey! I have a job to do, n i have to do it well coz i miss you, and wanna see u again, because i love you!"
So i will try my best to do it well.
I'll just look forward to the next time i chat with u, that's all. After all, we get to chat with each other within 24 hours. So the "missing" would not get too unbearable and hence, distracting.
It works because it is logical, u just have to tell yourself: "Hey! This is true!" And then follow it. That's all. Hope it works for you ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:23 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
Somehow, things in life often make dramatic turns. Just a few days ago u might be expecting something to go one way.... but somehow it doesn't turn out the way u intend it to be.
So on Sunday...it turned out the way i had expected it to be :)
I am eternally grateful for having such a loving girlfriend!
I guess she really understands me after all. ^^
Had steamboat @ YauTin. Nice dinner n we had lots of laugh!
Too bad i didn't give out the souvenirs in time....
So i had to carry lotsa stuff back home.... including the pot and the stove.
Acer Aspire 4520g
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:44 PM
Friday, August 10, 2007
to my close ones.
But the closest of them all
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:34 PM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Well, im flying off in the morning... its 12:15am now. I've gotta wake up at 6:30am and then reach the airport by 9am, check in, and then take off by 11am. I'll reach HK at around 2pm...
Had a great time today with Nic, and then with Carol, Wing & Sally. You guys make me complete. You guys make who Alfred is.
Primary Mission: To get to Singapore n back
Secondary Objective: Save enough $
Optional Objective: Regain my fitness
Reward: Able to have greater spending capabilities in HK.
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:15 AM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
She doesnt understand.... soemtimes it's only a little support that i want from her. =/
Is saying: "Oh, let us hope that we will win!" very difficult?
But she chose not to believe in my plan. Laughing me off, thinking i'm lying.
Have i ever lied to you?
Why WOULD i wanna lie to you?
I'm almost broke. I have only a little more than 100 bucks in my pocket. 100 bucks in me wallet's my bottomline. Once my pocket has less than 100 bucks, u can be assured i won't even fork out $ to buy hope.
But i still have a little more than 100 bucks now, i'm still trying to spend 20 bucks after 20 bucks to buy hope. I could have spent that money on something else. But i didn't. For what?
My grades suck. Yet i go to school after school, appealing and pleading.... letting them step on me. For what?
Sometimes, it frustrates me. I really don't understand why she doesn't trust me.
It was just a goddamn simple plan that i told u about... so simple and straight to the point. Why can't u even believe in my words? Why can't u just believe such simple things?
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:40 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
A Banana watching porn :P
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:13 AM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Fuckin depressed these days.
It's because of 1 thing: I'm at a crossroad.
There are two paths... and when i am faced with uncertainty...my mind will d rift and think...sometimes too much.... especially when i have nothing to do.
I have no school now and i'm like just sitting t home everyday. Funds are limited so going out isn't a great choice. From now till 31st of July... i feel so HELPLESS because there is nothing i can do to help myself but wait. Only after the JUPAS posting are out on 31st, can i try appealing to Unis.
That was one of the path.
The other path, if this path is blocked, is to go over to Manitoba, Canada.
I dread this path.... but life have to move on, so i understand that it is still a path, albeit a lonely one. And im not even sure UoM will even accept me as of now....
So my future is totally uncertain... i am hanging by the cliff of fate.
These problems are clouding my mind and driving me nuts. Anyone have a solution?
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:17 PM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Why are my hopes dashed one by one?
I need a miracle. Someone save me! Pls!
...as inscribed upon the runes 6:59 PM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Wow.. Hong Kong is 13 hours ahead of Manitoba, Canada.
So if it is 10pm in Hong Kong now, it is 9am in the morning in Manitoba.
And if it is 1am in Manitoba, it will be 2pm in Hong Kong. :)
If it is 11:30pm in Hong Kong, it will be 10:30am in Manitoba. ^^
Yay!
...as inscribed upon the runes 2:17 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
When you say, I miss the things you do
I just want to get back close again to you
But for now, your voice is near enough
How I miss you and I miss your love
And though, all the days that pass me by so slow
All the emptiness inside me flows
All around and theres no way out
Im just thinking so much of you
There was never any doubt
I can wait forever
If you say you'll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know its worth it all, to spend my life alone with you
When it looked as though my life was wrong
You took my love and gave it somewhere to belong
Ill be here, when hope is out of sight
I just wish that I were next to you tonight
And though, Ill be reaching for you even though
Youll be somewhere else, my love will go
Like a bird on its way back home
I could never let you go
And I just want you to know
I can wait forever
If you say you'll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know its worth it all, to spend my life alone with you
I can wait forever
If you say you'll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know its worth it all, to spend my life alone with you
I can wait forever
If you say you'll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know its worth it all, to spend my life alone with you
I can wait forever Nic, if you say you'll be there too. I can wait forever if you will. ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:32 PM
Saturday, June 30, 2007
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:11 PM
Friday, June 29, 2007
The Last Supper.
Spent with Nic, Michael, So, Mike, Cynthia, Wing, Yuri, Paul and Anny.
Whatever comes tmr... there is nothing we call can do accept embrace it.
So, let us not be carried away by emotions. Let us face it realistically.
Juz let it be. Think of other routes to take in the path of life.
As long as there is one breath left in me, there is hope.
Good luck to 7S! God Bless!
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:46 AM
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Let me make a promise to myself. No matter what happens on the 29th of March, I, Alfred Chan, will not remain upset for too long. I must be happy. I must be positive about all my choices.
Recently, one of my ex-classmate just died. He didn't die straight away. He had to lie in hospital for a week, and then had his leg amputated. Juz a few days ago, he died of infection. He was a great guy... humorous and friendly. N i felt sorry that he had to go. He gave me no chance to say goodbye. I learnt 2 things from this death. None of my classmates have died so far. He is the first.
1) Treasure those u have around u now. U never know when they are going to be gone. Tell them u love them.
2) I am still alive and results should not be sufficient to make be feel depressed. Life should be happy. There is always a choice. U can choose to wallow in self pity and wipe your face with what u've failed to achieve. OR You can choose to be happy and think positive.
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:07 AM
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Seeing is NOT believing!!!
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:22 PM
Saturday, June 23, 2007
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:52 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Perhaps one's upbringing and family environment can explain for one's personality and attitude, but it's NO EXCUSE that they are JACKASSES!
Being a suck up who favors those with power and lookin down on her fellow classmates, she deserves her fate today: Being berated by her very own classmates. All these happen because she talks bad about us behind our backs. Whether it is through Xanga or no Xanga, Blog or no Blog, Phone or no Phone, the medium of TALKING BAD ABOUT US BEHIND OUR BACKS is not important. The FACT that she DID IT is reason enough for us to hate her.
Bitch, you still think you're so damn right?
Like Ms _____ said, if 1 person is pissed with you, maybe it's that person's fault.
If 2 people are pissed with you, maybe it's a coincidence.
If 3 people are pissed with you, maybe you are at fault too.
Right now, 70% of the class is FUCKING PISSED AT YOU!!! YOU STILL THINK YOU'RE IN THE RIGHT? PEOPLE DON'T GET FUCKING ANGRY FOR NO REASON! STOP LIVING IN DENIAL AND DO SOME SOUL-SEARCHING. TELL YOURSELF YOU WERE WRONG AND LEARN FROM IT DAMMIT!!!
Wanna know why the class is so angry? I'll tell you why.
1)You treat your fellow classmates as dirt.
You speak to us like you're talking to some beggar, some slave, or some servant of yours. You hate working for us, yet you always wanna be helping the teachers. The result? You ironically live in suffering as you are made by teachers to work for the better of our class. But you don't do your job well, coz you can't bear to co-operate peacefully with us, because you are oh-so-mighty. Thus, you don't get things done properly and you blame it on us. The teachers will see that only you've tried to help them and it doesn't matter if you get the job done or not. We get the blame.
2)You fucking make up + spread gossip.
Gossip is ok. Seriously. When you gossip with best friends and not spread them like wildfire, it's not so bad. BUT YOUR FUCKING BITCH MOUTH had to spread them OUT OF THE CLASS. You know what? It's common knowledge that you can't be trusted with secrets. ASk your friends(if u have any) or even your best friends. See if they would trust THEIR own secrets with you?
You HAD to tell 6S some things that shouldn't have been told. You HAD to make up who and who where holding hands WHEN THEY DID NOT. You just fuckin had to, dammit.
3)You make the class look bad to cover up for your incompetence and lack of social skills.
Your low EQ together with your reluctance to forge a bond with classmates often make you doing jobs for teachers all by yourself, with no one willing to listen to or help you. Since you're "so close" with some teachers, you can tell them anything bad about the class, and the class have NO SAY in whatever fake shit you spread about us.
4)You're a fucking two faced asshole.
Yup, you appear to our chinese relief teacher as a helpful student, tellin her what Ms Tai DOESN'T and CANNOT do, but the next minute you're telling Ms Tai how bad we were and how much we like the Chinese Relief teacher more than Ms Tai. In the end? Ms Tai hates us and doesnt feel like teaching us anymore. Ms Tai is unlucky to have such a deceitful friend. I feel sorry for her. If i could, i'd warn Ms Tai not to let you so close to her baby, otherwise her baby would end up looking like you(not to mention speaking like you omg><)!
There's more, i just got too disgusted to continue writing. I feel like puking already.
...as inscribed upon the runes 4:48 PM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
FLOOD HER XANGA WITH YOUR RAGE!
講到我地, 好鬼無能,
講到自己, 十項全能,
不屈不撓, 擦鞋精神,
令到我地, 毛管都震,
革命時機, 不容再等,
革命時期, 已經來臨,
六月飛霜, 人神共憤,
我們一起, 抵抗小人,
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:01 PM
The day started off pretty normal. Nothing special, and not exactly bad either. Woke up, had a late lunch while watching Ghostrider. Then went over to Uncle William's.
Unfortunately, the Sine curve of life finally hit a minimum after dinner. Earlier today i had planned to buy gift for Nic, but it's fucking sold out. And non of the shops have it.
Then i thought we could have desserts together...but the shop's full..
Then in the end, when we finally found a place all to ourselves, i realised i can't touch her soft skin, and we were driven off by fuckin mosquitoes.
Fuckin sad.
Really wished A and a Katana appeared in front of me. I really could have slashed her right there and then.
Oh well, on a happy note, Nic's gna stay for the week! ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:22 PM
If murder is not a crime, someone in my class would be dead already. Why? Well, basically she is a fucking gossip + two face bitch, traitor of 7S. If 7S has a court, she should be mutilated to death for treason.
Her voice is annoying is enough to get me pissed, but that's not all.... her bossy attitude together with her oh-so-great self delusional personality makes her a perfect asshole. She thinks she's like the disappointed saviour of 7S, walking the lonely but self-sacrificial road to glory. I find it a miracle that she is still alive. There were many times i could sense my fist plunging into her head, through her skull, and then exiting through the other side with a crimsom spray of gray matter. She should really have thanked God that i stopped myself in time.
Case 1: She thinks our class is pretending to be united when we went on stage in morning assembly the other time but in reality we aren't coz no one listened to her to come for the Speech Day rehearsals.
What I'd say: Well fuck you Bitch! The whole class is United.... AGAINST YOU! That's why no one ever listen when u barked orders. We all know that 1 rehearsal is sufficient. And in the end, everything goes well. Just because we don't come for the other rehearsals doesn't mean that we aren't united.... it means that we're smart, so we decided to be UNITED and not go for rehearsals TOGETHER! Get it?? Bitch. Stop thinking that just because coming for rehearsals together = united. We have brains. Unlike you.
Case 2: She thinks that this year's Graduation Dinner is really poor, no atmosphere and the teachers and students aren't happy with each other.
What I'd say: You know why you feel so unhappy after Grad Din? That's because NO ONE EVER CARE TO TALK TO YOU! Everyone is busy having a gd time with each other while u are left alone. Why? Coz you're such a jackass that speakin to you makes everyone wanna hack the shit out of you. Ok, so no one likes you, i think u know it. S just hangs around with u coz she had known u for a long time and don't see the need to offend you. So during the whole night, u had no fun, u just worked. Yes work. Sucking up aka polishing shoes in canto. You sat right next to the teachers and suck up to them. You're such a bloody suck up that you think you own everything, and you get to control everything. Well, no one cares about you anyway. You're just a dog. I'm sure the teachers understand why you have so many issues with the class. They just don't wanna tell you coz it'll hurt your crappy feelings. Well, Ms Cheung should understand, she is really smart. I guess that explains why you don't like this Grad Din. You're not part of 7S. Sorry to say this, but you belong in the staff room of Maryknoll, polishing shoes.
More cases in the next few blog entries.
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:57 AM
Monday, June 11, 2007
A1: 23, 3, 31, 6, 28, 41
A2: 38, 21, 15, 8, 41, 27
N1: 19, 3, 27, 31, 42, 8
N2: 17, 22, 36, 38, 41, 11
God bless!!!!!
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:53 PM
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:41 PM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
未登天子位，先置砵仔糕
冇咁大個頭就唔好戴咁大頂帽啦!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH WING!!!!!
U're finally a year older and 2x!
Wish u all the best for ur future
(yes i know that no one knows,
but the future will unfold.
Trust your heart and trust your mind,
keep believin' in us and you'll be fine!)
Wing, you're a specal friend, and its a pity u couldnt join us tonight at Ka Ho, but i think u will have many more splendid memories with me. Love you forever as a brother!
Graduation day today.
As we go on, we remember, all the times we, had together. And as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be, friends forever.
Today started off really badly. I was really scared when my other half got moody. Really worried + scared + don't know what to do! >< But i just stayed with her, crossed my fingers, and hope she gets better. Well, she seems better later on in the day so THANK GOD!
Everything went smoothly after that. Got 3 awards.
3rd in class. Most improvement award. 1st in English Language for whole of F.7.
Really surprised when i found out i got 1st in Chem group and 3rd in class.
I am even happier when i found that my other half has managed to pass all her subjects! :))
WAY TO GO!
Well, all's well, ends well. ^^
LOOKIN FORWARD TO GRAD DIN!!!
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:11 AM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
What i want for Christmas
Sorry i know it's a little too early to be thinking about Christmas Wishes, but Christmas is the only magical time of the year where we can get wishes! So even though it's not Christmas yet, i hope that Santa Claus could some how give me this very special present.
Her trust.
In my opinion, it would be ideal if two hearts can have complete trust in each other. In fact, it should start with 100% trust, unless of course I cheated on her. If that happens and her trust in me decrease, then i would deserve it.
I know it's not really a huge gift, but i think it is very special. I've had my fair share of trials and tribulations. And so far, i have resisted all their temptations. I believe in myself totally that i would not let her down. So i think it's only logical that she would be more trusting of me.
Excuse my rant.
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:02 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007
Sometimes, it's important to be able to take a big step back and look at the big picture...
everything's ok as long as we love each other n not hurt each other.
...as inscribed upon the runes 3:29 AM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Today is a special day. Remember it. :)
The metamorphosis is complete.
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Friday, May 25, 2007
Gosh... how can my life be so wrong ><
Because of written words, xangas, actions, gestures... we can misunderstand one another.
Now i've made 2 people upset with me.
Great >.>
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:53 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Watched My Girl in the morning till afternoon. Very funny!
Had my hair cut by Chris today with Nic @ WanChai
Played Super Dance Online after dinner.
Learnt an important lesson: Playing with someone special is more important than playing the game well. I know what to do.
Too bad the game was laggy again... we can't enjoy it. ><
Parents sucks sometimes....
Good day ended with a bad note. ><
No mood to play now.
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:06 PM
Monday, May 07, 2007
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Saturday, May 05, 2007
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Friday, May 04, 2007
Programme : 6901 Bachelor of Science Programme
Date : May 16, 2007 (Wednesday)
Time : 4:00 pm
Interview Format: Group Interview
Venue : LE4, Library Extension (Library Building)
The University of Hong Kong
Gosh. I hope everything goes smoothly.
Anyone else going?
...as inscribed upon the runes 6:12 PM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Day 6 of freedom: Penis Museum Cleavage Smells great ^^
Woke up at 9 today only after Grandpa called me. Initially wanted to wake up at 7am but i slept so well that i didn't even hear my alarm clock and phone ring.
Anyways met up with nic n went to sch together to have breakfast, n then chat with Yuri, So and Wing in the canteen. All sorts of things! Then we practiced oral for a while... since 7C took our classroom DAMMIT! And Miss Cheung was NOWHERE TO BE FOUND DAMMIT!
So much for practicing oral.
After some weak attempts, Wing left for lunch with Carol. Think she must be angry with me still for something which she don't see eye to eye with me. OH well, i guess it's no use changing the way how she feels. If she don't like it then there is nothing i can do too. It's not like i ever meant to do her harm. In my heart she is still a good friend, i will be there when she calls, i will be there when she needs me. So if she misunderstands me, i can only say sorry and move on.
Went to Telford plaza and played arcade games with So, Nic and yuri. Spend just the right amount for 2 people.
Got Nic hooked onto Guitarfreaks :P
Then it's Kim Gary's for tea (we skipped lunch coz we're fucking free and we want to)
Whim and fancy rules!
So went back to sch while Nic and Yuri and I went to Pacific Place in Admiralty. Searched high and low but it was actually in square 1. Target spotted, locked on, fired a trace missile then we move to hideout.
Tsim sha tsui.
Shopping! But only window shopping! Giordano concepts. Targeted a white shirt ^^
Had dinner at Satay King but our worst nightmare came true when we placed our orders and yuri received a call and had to leave. So nicand i finished a meal fit for 3! Fucking full for 4 hours after that.
After dinner, we went to play 4 frounds of Guitarfreaks again! Wahaha fun!
Then we went home.
What a fuckin fun day! Freedom rules!
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:59 AM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Day 5 of my freedom: For you ^^
Yesterday was the last day of all HKALE Papers for the class of 7S. So after having lunch with someone special at Meguro Sushi near my house(which i didn't know exist until yesterday), we went and watch the King's Man starring Lee Jun Ki. Great gay ass show XD
Nic, So, Yuri, Meng and Chairman was present at Kwun Tong MTR exit A and we left for the 268c bus stop at 7pm. Reached Yeun Long at almost 8+pm and thank god Mike and Cynthia already bought most of the BBQ stuff from Sze Pui Gei ^^ Went over to Park n Shop to get the gin and drinks when my Uncle Terence called. So he gave the food and stuff together with me a lift to yau tin while the rest of the gang walk to Yau Tin.
He fixed the air con and stuff... but i found out it was only due to the timer XD
Started BBQ-ing and chatting about all sorts of stuff.
Too bad those who didn't come, even though we wish u did. Perhaps the next time you hear about another yau tin gathering, you'll enquire about the details.
Anyways, yuri was KO after receiving my 50% and Meng's 60%. SLept for like 6 hours while we burn notes, went out for dessert and played PS2.
But it was a good thing that Yuri was drunk because he finally found the courage to be more proactive in his pursuit of happiness. He asked and he was accepted and he'll send her home tomorrow. Way to go yuri ^^
For me, i guess it's official now. No matter how 'friend' you guys are to me, there are things i cannot say or tell because i have principles. I hope you understand that whether i tell you guys or not, the value of our friendship does not change at all. If u wanna hate me about this, there is nothing i can do about it but feel sorry that i am losing a friend who doesn't understands me.
Slept for a couple of hours before waking up and playing PS2 + eating chips again. Bring them around yau tin village on bike ^^ Had lunch at some fake jap eating house just outside yautin at about 1 pm.
Really enjoy this yau tin trip. But unfortunately, many things weren't really spoken, even more things are not clarified. All because none of us are high. We only had 1 bottle of gin this time. Planning to go there on either 15, 16 or 17 again.
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:15 AM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
每天总是期待看你一遍哦
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:59 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Day 2 of my freedom:
Woke up early this morning to "Yum Cha" with grandma and grandpa... haven't done this for a looong time! Ate a lot of good food, then went to buy a new headphone with speakers as well as an air pump for my basketball.
Went home and played some "Dai B" games for a while ... which i still suck at.... i must train hard to get outta my noobdom ><
Then i pumped up my bball, and went down to play.
Had 5 matches, won 4 and lost the last 1. Was really really tired. I couldn't walk home after that because i can't even feel my legs...
So i sat down and watch others play for like 30 minutes before i struggled to get up...and ambled home.
Now i'm sitting in front of the com after a good shower... typing on my blog.... chatting on the phone.
Flu sucks, i know. ><
If only i'm going through it all instead of you~
...as inscribed upon the runes 6:27 PM
Friday, April 27, 2007
Hurts to see u in pain. Hope u're ok soon!
Was pretty bored today. Yuri invited me to school to "blow water". I was hesitant at first, coz i think no one would be blowing water with me since they are there to study but Yuri said it's ok, so i went back after lunch.
Played arcade games with them during their lunch break then went back to the classroom soon after. Guitar and racing was fun!
Chatted for a little while in the classroom and realised no one is really free to be chatting with me, so i left earlier than expected.
Wanted to buy rice in Tiu Keng Leng, but it's too expensive, so grandpa asked me to buy them another time.
That's Day 1 of being a free man for me. Sucks.
But at least i get to see you ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 5:59 PM
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...as inscribed upon the runes 9:55 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Goodbye Chem. I'm done killing you.
It was a nice kill.
I enjoyed it.
I hope u did, too.
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Some people say Chem was hard, some people say Chem was easy this year. But whatever it is, i just feel good after doing the paper. It was a good feeling, like everything was so smooth. It was perfect for paper 1. Perfect. For paper 2, efficiency was not so good. i have to give myself a 85.
But none the less, i am happy about this paper. Chem... please, let me have a C. ><
...as inscribed upon the runes 7:42 PM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Thanks for this afternoon, my musacae :) I feel soooo much better after telling you why my heart felt like being stomped by an elephant ever since last night all the way till this morning. I do take what u say seriously, u know. I joke a lot and all, but when faced with matters that concerns us, i'll take u word for word.
Anyways, i have to thank you for being so patient with me today. I was a little wussy and all, but men are humans too. I hope u understand. I didn't want to let loose my floodgates at first, but the thought of u not believing in me, that i'm blaming you for telling me the truth... it's just too much to bear.
Sorry if i gave you a shock. Anyways, i will be more trusting of you in days to come, and i hope u will be more trustin of me too. I hope u understand that i do not mean to doubt u, but at that moment, i was really disappointed and was afraid that u would leave me. I started thinking wildly, about every possible scenario. But now i know.
You are the one. My only one.
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:27 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
What's the use of lying to make someone happy for a while,
only to hurt them afterwards because you don't mean what u say?
I'd rather you tell me the truth.
Coz i'll be hurt even more if i find out the truth by myself later - through your actions.
What does 'i'm not your type mean?'
Does it mean that i'm only temporary?
These questions plague my mind.
I guess no matter how hard i try, i'll never be what u really want.
I'm so sorry.
We should have more confidence in ourselves. If we believe in something, then there will not be a 'hard to say' situation. Because we know what will not happen.
Oh well. I'll just sleep n be ok tomorrow :)
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:47 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:27 PM
The Battle: 24-April-2007 The hour arrives, -Alfred
the end draws nigh.
Minds like 1 and a half years of sharpened knives,
hoping they could save our lives.
Paper arrives, holy white,
shrouding the demons we all hide.
Unsheath our blades,
open our eyes,
scrawl and slash with all our might.
Questions after questions,
time goes by,
never have we so desperately fight.
Wounded and weary,
we close our eyes,
the end of the end is finally here.
Questions we have answered,
but one last one lingered:
Have we done our best?
The last we want are regrets.
As our last breath sigh,
we'll rest assured AL Physics' not alive!
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:16 PM
Sunday today... woke up later than usual today... but the timing was just nice.
Had a bath this morning cause i was feelin sticky... weather's turning annoyingly humid lately...
Anyways, had a very "hae" day today... spent some time napping and playing Oblivion, so nothing much was done. Oh well... at least i think i can be prepared for it before the battle begins XD LOL
Had a great dinner tonight at Jumbo's. around HKD$30+ for two. It was sizzling hot plate meals too... fucking great :)
Will definitely visit Jumbo's again. Wakakaka~
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:04 AM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
After reading Felix' Xanga, i think that i can no longer get an A for English... all because of a badly set question for Practical Skills Task 1.
For practical skills... i wrote more than the 500 words limit for Task 1... i think i wrote around 1k+ ... all the way till the last page, where the signature is. Fuck. And to think that it is the most perfect letter of proposal that i have ever written in my life so far ><
I will damn well complain to HKEAA if they penalise the contents. It is fuckin' impossible to squeeze so many points into a 500 words essay. I will make sure i appear on TV and go on strike. No one can wrap up about 40+ points into a 500 word proposal within 1 hr. What's more, u still have to elaborate and ice the whole essay. It's insane that HKEAA is demanding a standard that 90% of students can't achieve. They have aims for the betterment of students yes, thats good, to tailor students to more practical skills of the working world, to follow instructions, but they fucking SCREWED UP the whole question by making it impossible to complete within such a fuckin short word limit. Who the hell set such a lousy paper? He should be shot multiple times up his ass and then in his mouth so the bullets will meet halfway and he'll implode. If you're gonna set a word limit for this paper, then u should at least have the fuckin brains to ensure that your points don't exceed 500 words IN LETTER, and not point form! FUCK YOU ASSHOLE! ROT IN HELL!!
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To the HKEAA:
2007 Section E Paper 1 Task 1 is the most poorly set exam paper in HKALE history. HKEAA is to be blamed. What's the point of having unrealistic goals coupled with impossible-to-do questions? FUCK YOU HKEAA! Unless u fuckin fire all your useless staffs and stop changing the fuckin syllabus so often, the educational path of hong kong is doomed! DOOMED I TELL YA!
The word limit is a fuckin USELESS restriction. In real life, your boss probably won't ask u to accomplish an important proposal in 1 hour if he wants u to do a good job. So how are u tryin to imitate real life by setting the word limit AND forcing students to accomplish a PROPOSAL for a PROJECT they have NEVER DONE BEFORE within a word limit?? Prepare students for the working life? I say thats absurd! More like preparing students for working in sweatshops.
Tell me 3 good reasons for the word limit that is rational and realistic and i'll promise not to make a ruckus over it on national TV.
Fuck you,
Alfred
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:15 AM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Finishing Chemistry Revision soon.
Expected Date: 13th of April
...as inscribed upon the runes 7:44 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Stir it around evenly. 
Add it into the simmering meat and onions. 
Simmer for about 20 minutes.
Bon apetit~!
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:40 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Minx came over to HK!
Went out with her last night. Intended to have a simple dinner with her then go off... but she went to Cheung Chau instead, so she suggested we meet at 9.
Met up with Minx, Maggie and Karen at Mongkok MTR, then the four of us headed to women's street to get a pair of shoes for Minx. Minx bought a bag and another scarf as well.
Had trouble looking for Cheung Sha Road, and after we found it, we had trouble locating the hotel where Pruss and Nicole are holed up in. Got there soon enough - by Taxi. Found out that it was only a street away! ><
Anyways we went to Lan Kwai Fong by Cab, and then went into a bar. Maggie ordered the first round of jello shits and taught us how to eat it. Apparently, you got to use the toothpick provided to scrape off the circular jello and then cup it onto the back of your hand between the thumb and index finger. Then you start eating it all the while balancing it at the back of your hand.
Last night, we had a total of 3 shots, and 2 glasses of beer each. We started dancing on the table soon after and so was everyone else in the club. One guy even danced over to us and strip teased, to which all the ladies at the table (i'm the only guy) did not show any interest. After the song ended, the guy walked off muttering 'boring fucks' XD
It was a great evening, we played many drinking games throughout, and then finally, after a few hours, the birthday girl arrived - drunk. Happy birthday Adeline! Even thought i don't know her, i find her quite an amusing person. She danced as soon as she saw us, and had to rush into the ladies halfway through coz she felt like puking. After she came out, we could see that she was drunk pretty horribly, and she really seem able to pass out anytime.
In the end after some more dancing and puking, we had to call it a night and Minx, Karen and Maggie sent went back to Adeline's house. As for me, i'm grateful to Pruss and Nicole for letting me stay over at their hotel.
Woke up at 8pm and they were still sleeping. I left them a thank you note and walked outta the door.
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Watched Happily Never After today ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:27 PM
Friday, April 06, 2007
Woke up at 11:43am today
After Nic and a friend from SG called.
Looks like i'm going to have dinner with Minx tomorrow night.
Went to school to revise Chem. Finally finished Chem revision. Now all that's left is to do questions. Do. DO. Do.
Saw Mike, Cynthia and Nic. Mike + Cynthia went to watch Mr. Bean's Holiday. Mike gave it 4 stars out of 5 later.
I went to have a great dinner. :)
Thanks for the dinner ;)
After dinner, did some revision n watched 向世界出发。
Was really funny at times, but generally touching. Could almost relate to Gigi Leung.
Oh well, hope to pack in more hours of revision tomorrow. Best of luck. To me and you ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:43 AM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:46 PM
In German: Geliebte
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English Listening today. Was pretty easy except for 2 questions which im not sure of. This year's easy because they spoke quite slowly, and there wasn't much thinking questions involved. I think everyone should do well for this paper. Even if you think you didn't do well, think about how much points you ALREADY scored rather than the points you lost...ok? :)Should get 9X this time. Let's really hope i get an A*. By the way does anyone knows how much i must score before i get an A*?
Back to revision tomorrow. Physics and Chem, here i come!
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...as inscribed upon the runes 8:25 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
Had English Exam today.
1st Paper: Writing.... i chose question 3:
"When teen idols get married they often become less popular with their fans" Is there any truth in this view? Based on your knowledge and observations of the entertainment industry over recent years, write a magazine artocle stating whether you agree or disagree with this comment. Give at least three reasons for your position and supply supporting examples. You can refer to local or international idols. Give your Article a Title.
"Teen idols: A walk down the aisle...to the end of stardom?"
I disagree for this one.
My approach for the essay this time is to use counter arguments. I often start with "Some people say...." or "And what if they....?", stating points that those who agree would use and then countering them.
My major reasoning is that popularity is affected by the change in style, physique, body image, publicity of a teen idol. I argued that teen idols who CAN juggle their family and work life well can still be highly sucessful, eg. Eason Chan.
Sometimes they become more mature, and more appealing to teenage girls, eg. Nicholas Tse.
Sometimes they become wild and crazy like Britney Spears but her fans still like her nonetheless, and even go on to follow her bold bald shave.
Sometimes they don't change at all, like Avril Lavigne.
My second paper was section C... which was over real quick. The summary cloze and matching was harder this year, and so was the proofreading, which i think was tricky. So i think many people will die this time and the cut off curve would changed so more people can pass ^^
The last paper after lunch was practical skillz. I daresay it was the BEST FUCKING PRACTICAL SKILLZ I HAD EVER DONE IN MY LIFE! I did a mindmap, numbered ALL the major points for each paragraph, and underlined ALL the points in the data file + numbered them accordingly. I wrote the longest Task 1 ever. Even though it said not more than 500 words, i think i had close to 1500 words. It was 4 pages long and ends at the last page... where they had this signature "Terry Lau". It was just perfect.
Let's hope i get a fucking A* this time ^^
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After the A's, on 30th of April, let's go to Yau Tin and PARTY SHALL WE MY FRIENDS?! SHOUT IN MY FUCKING SHOUTBOX IF U WANNA! SAY YES!!!!!!!
Quoth from So:
- alexso - says:
yeah , burn all the fucking notes!
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Friday, March 30, 2007
3 words: Lame. I Don't Know. Banana. Stepping out of the bathroom, i walked across the dimly lit room with big, bold strides. Next to my supercomputer is my complete set of armour. Kevlar Helmet + 9, Kevlar Breastplate + 7, Kevlar Gauntlets + 8, Kevlar Gaiters + 11 and my Nike Air Shox + 6. Garbed in my complete set of armour, i looked extremely majestic. Hmm something seems to be lacking. OH yes, a red cloak! SPARTA! Kicking open the front door with my heavy boots, i yelled Goodbye to my grandfather, buckled my sword tighly to my leather belt and left like a warm summer breeze. The air was chilly and dry and dead leaves crunched under the weight of my metallic boots. 
On my way to the bus stop, some asshole bumped into me despite my manly appearance. I didn't know if he did it on purpose but he didn't apologise and continued walking off. Being a mild-mannered student, i drew my sword out from it's ivory scabbard and gave it one hell of a swing. Whoosh, and that funny-looking guy's head rolled off his neck like a basketball flying with Bernoulli's effect.
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:11 PM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Wow, so today's the 29th and tomorrow's the 30th: The start of the A Levels...
Ladies and Gentlemen, the first paper is....
Chinese~!
Hahaha it's supposed to be my weakest subject, yet strangely i feel no fear. It's because i believe that i am prepared for it? Or am i just being too optimistic again? Anyways it don't matter fuck now... i'm still gonna kill it tomorrow... hehehe
DiE biTCH DiE!
Thank God i have a personal tutor who teaches me chinese culture. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
You know who u are ;)
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:54 PM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Time flies. In the blink of an eye, i've already lived out 20 years of my life on Earth. Well not literally of course, but 20 years old seemed so far just a few years ago. It's like a figure of adulthood... Took some pictures with Cathy and So as well! After that, Carol, Wing and Sally arrived and then followed by Mike and BJ! Wasting not time at all, we proceeded to Greenbox, where we met up with Meng and then started having fun singing + eating + drinking! Paul, Anny and Chairman came soon after too! A total of 14 people in the room, really never had so much fun for such a long time. The cake was amazing. It had a smiley face with a banana smile! XD Too bad the banana snapped into 2 while struggling to get away from Nic haha Got my face smudged by Anny and Nic... wahaha but played "washin machine" with Nic's face(with cake of course!). After so many many many minutes, we decided it was time to leave... coz it's late n we had to catch the last train/bus home. BJ then stayed behind with Mike to continue singing... but before that he did a really cool magic trick... made a card i chose appear with a Ferero Rocher sticker after shuffling, and then tappin it to produce a REAL Ferero Rocher! Omg! XD Thanks to everyone who came yesterday... i really never expected so many good friends to come out even though we're gna have our A's so soon! FRIENDS FOREVER! Finally, i really love this cup which i received from Carol n Wing. It has a photos of all my good friends in it and i love it absolutely XD
When i was in Primary School, Secondary School students already seemed like Giants.
When i was in Secondary School, people from JCs seemed really mature, like adults.
Yet here i am, 20 years old in Form 7 (JC2), i don't feel like an adult at all.
I still love being lame, doing spastic things, having fun, watchin Spongebobs... and most importantly, playin computer games!
Of course, i get to do lots of things i really couldn't do or get to do when i was younger... like going out alone, buying alcohol, sleepin in the streets, going wild camp, playin with my lovely XXXXXX. XD
So i guess 20 years old is like a transition state. After attaining sufficient activation energy, i've reached the turning point in this reaction called Life. I'll be starting out an intermediate stage of 20s and 30s... before moving on to my andropausal years :P
20 years of life. 20 years of the joys and sorrows, pleasures and pains of life. I guess it's high time i thank some people.
Firstly, i wanna thank my mum and dad for bringing me into this world (through God of course so thank God XD)
I wanna thank my mum especially for raising me and my sis but especially me because this is my blog XD I really appreciate the hard work she put into keepin a family together, juggling work and family, the role of mum and dad. I know she is worn and weary, but worry not! I will soon be earning $$$ to support you! All the times she cooked for us, she scolded us, she bought presents for us, the love she gave us, the advices/teachings she gave me, she patience and hope she had for me... i will always remember in my heart. I hope i would be enable her to live comfortably when she retires... I love you mum. ><>
I wanna thank my sis for being such an ass ever since the day she was born XD Well, she can be nice when she wants to, but most of the time the fuse of her patience and temper is as long as the bristles on my chin. Haha ok i'm giving you a break... even though brothers and sisters are born to be callin each other names, there is undeniably some sort of sibling love between us, so no matter what, blood is thicker than water, i'll stick by you. And don't u go around callin me old, coz 20 years is not old at all... you're about 18 yourself :P
I wanna thank my friends.
Carol: After knowing for 1 and a half years, you're still as quick to anger and laughter as ever :) Sometimes you can be very simple... simple to understand, simple to befriend. But sometimes, you can be very terrible, having mood swings, and keeping stuff to yourself. Even so, i still think you're one of my best friends because you are a loyal friend who believes strongly in everlastin friendships. And you stick by me through my rough times and high times, being there for me, caring for me. If there is any problem of yours that u wanna share, just let me know and i will be there. I may not be able to see u so often now, n although it seems like we've drifted further from each other, the truth is, we've always been close. You're always in my heart, and i am in yours, friends forever.
Wing: Still the same old wing after almost 2 years. Steadfast in silence :) Always the good listener who gives sound advices by approachin the problem in a logical and rational manner. I would never forget the time we had camp together and talked outside those mobile toilets... it was the first time i see u open up. I may have let you down time and time again, but each time you'd never hold a grudge against me. I must thank you for being so understanding. Though times are different now, we'll be there for each other right? I'm just a call away old buddy!
Cathy: My partner in class, my confidant, my drinkin partner and one of my best friends. I will never forget the times u sat down beside me by Hung Hom Seafront, sippin vodka and listening to my tales of woes. Although we may not see each other as often, we'll always be best friends forever! If u have any probs im just a call away :D
So: My maths genius bro! About high time we have another drinking session - after the A's of course! Let's go to yau tin ok? :) I love it when u laugh at crazy lame jokes with me. I love it when we go to tea together after school. I love it when we can be there for each other, telling each other's things~! I know u are going through lots of stuff right now, and there is little i can do for u... but i hope that u will really be strong and endure... because if u cannot take it anymore, i will have to make u drunk :P
Nic: You're really someone special. The first girl to ever go hikin with me, the first person to ever show me so much. I guess i don't have much to say here. You know everythin i have to say anyway :P And even if you don't, you'll be receiving a 19 page special edition memory book soon ;)
Sally: We've been through lots, since the time of Carol and Wing, and between us there were lots of misunderstandings and bad timings but phew, that's in the past and it's good and great fun to be friends with you :) So take care, and take heart, life's short, be smart ^^
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Wing called me a few days ago and asked if im free on the 27th...
27th: Went to MK with Nic at 7pm and walked around women street coz we're so fucking good and punctual XD
Met up with Cubic, So and Cathy outside New World... and OMFG~!
I RECEIVED A BAG OF MY DREAMS FROM NIC AND YURI!!! THANKS SO MUCH!!!
It's brown. It's leather. AND IT'S LARGE! It could be slung like a sling bag as well as carried on the shoulders. It's really something i had in mind and wanted to buy for a long time. Thanks to the both of u~!
Let's Kill the A levels now my friends. Meet in Yau Tin again after the A's OK????
...as inscribed upon the runes 3:28 AM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
I love playing with you :)
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:08 PM
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Here you go, Fides~
http://www.dpreview.com/news/0701/07012502olympusfe230.asp
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:25 PM
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:20 AM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Artist: Boyzone
Album: By Request...
Title: No Matter What
no matter what they tell us
no matter what they do
no matter what they teach us
what we believe is true
no matter what they call us
however they attack
no matter where they take us
we'll find our own way back
i can't deny what i believe
i can't be what i'm not
i'll know our love's forever
i'll know no matter what
if only tears were laughter
if only night was day
if only prayers were answered
then we would hear god say
no matter what they tell you
no matter what they do
no matter what they teach you
what you believe is true
and i will keep you safe an strong
and sheltered from the storm
no matter where it's barren
a dream is being born
no matter who they follow
no matter where they lead
no matter how they judge us
i'll be everyone you need
no matter if the sun don't shine
or if the skies are blue
no matter what the ending
my life began with you
i can't deny what i believe
i can't be what I'm not
i know this loves forever
that's all that matters now - no matter what
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:14 PM
Perhaps she may not accept us now.
But i am sure once you have finished your studies, she would respect your choice.
For now, we can still be happy together.
So let's keep it simple and worry-free! ^^
Everything else isn't a problem as long as I love you and you love me.
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:24 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:19 PM
Aww looks like i lost ^^ Nice food @ Kim Gary's... Too bad yours was a mixture of Western/Japanese/Korean Cuisine... Sweet, Spicy and Fruity at the same time XD
Baked Spaghetti with Tomatoes and Beef still isn't as tasty as Rocky Bowl Rice~!
Lesson Learnt today: Never to use the handphone for chatting long periods of time! Haha~
Expensive lesson :P
Glad that you finished compiling the physics chapter 4 "Secret Manual"... i can spend time going through it tonight, Master ;)
Hope you can finish all the maths in Physical Chem tonight!
Gambaro to all 7S classmates! ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:14 PM
Monday, March 19, 2007
Things keep getting more and more exciting with you ;)
Who'd be treating lunch tomorrow? Hmmm ....
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:45 PM
Did something exciting today again.
Hoped it was enjoyable ;)
For dinner... 3 people cooked!
I did the soup while the washing and the rice was done by my 2 hospitable hosts.
Great meal...had 4 bowls of rice ^^
Lookin forward to tomorrow.... finish Phy Chapter 4 tomorrow!!!!!!!
GAMBATTE!
Let's fucking kill it tmr, babe ;)
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:10 AM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Me + Mr. Wong
Me + Sally 
Nic + Me 
Wing + Me
7S Boyz
So + Cathy + Me
Me + Nica + So
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:10 AM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:02 PM
It hurts to see someone close to me in pain...
Wish i could do something to help...
Oh well... i guess i should believe in that person. I should trust that person would not brood over her mistakes for too long. After all, we are in a battle, and time is not on our side. We need to win this battle together, win this war, and do our mothers proud!
To you:
Yes, you may not do well for all your subjects now, but when A levels come, MAKE SURE you can do a lot better! Imagine the day you collect your certificate... TELL YOURSELF YOU WANNA BE SMILING, SMILING AT THE GRADES ON THE CERTIFICATE, GRADES THAT YOU HAD HOPED TO GET. Then wake up, and tell yourself this is the goal you wanna work towards, that you want it to become true, and work harder than ever!
Let's do this together! For us and for our mothers who loved us so much!
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:20 AM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Artist: Bon Jovi
Album: Cross Road
Title: Livin' On A Prayer
Once upon a time
Not so long ago
Tommy used to work on the docks
Union's been on strike
He's down on his luck...it's tough, so tough
Gina works the diner all day
Working for her man, she brings home her pay
For love - for love
She says we've got to hold on to what we've got
'cause it doesn't make a difference
If we make it or not
We've got each other and that's a lot
For love - we'll give it a shot
Whooah, we're half way there
Livin' on a prayer
Take my hand and we'll make it - i swear
Livin' on a prayer
Tommy's got his six string in hock
Now he's holding in what he used
To make it talk - so tough, it's tough
Gina dreams of running away
When she cries in the night
Tommy whispers baby it's okay, someday
We've got to hold on to what we've got
'cause it doesn't make a difference
If we make it or not
We've got each other and that's a lot
For love - we'll give it a shot
Whooah, we're half way there
Livin' on a prayer
Take my hand and we'll make it - i swear
Livin' on a prayer
We've got to hold on ready or not
You live for the fight when it's all that you've got
Whooah, we're half way there
Livin' on a prayer
Take my hand and we'll make it - i swear
Livin' on a prayer
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:19 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Today's oral exam went pretty well.
Talked sufficiently and made some pretty decent points during group discussion.
But i have no mood to write about this anymore.
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I feel rather down and sad now because
1)Someone whom i hold dear to my heart is feeling down and is on the verge of giving up on herself
2)Because i am so useless i could not do anything to make her feel better
Fuck it man....
Now i am staring at test 9 and 10, waiting for me to finish them, but i just didn't have the mood to. So i figured i might as well blog about my feelings, hoping to feel better.
To you:
I don't want to repeat what i said on the phone minutes ago. I hate myself for nagging at you, as much as you hate listening to me. It must be boring, but i felt that it was needed, because i care about you, and hope you understand that when u fall, u can always pick yourself up and try again. And there is always me around to help you too when u meet with problems. There is no problem we cannot solve together!
I just want you to know that i will do all i can to help you. I just want you to have no regrets. To be happy even after the A levels. Not temporary happiness for now.
So why not just give it your best shot and see how well you do? :)
There's nothing to lose anyway!
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:19 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
The last hiking trip before the A Levels:
Ok, this would be the last hiking trip before the A Levels, and i think it is very special to me because hiking IS very important to me. One reason why i love Hong Kong so much is because there are so many places for me to hike. I could still remember the first time i hiked in Hong Kong. It was very special and very memorable. It was Tai Lam Country Park after visiting an Archery Range and Stable in Tuen Mun. The company consists of Uncle Kit, Terence, Nic, Zeon and my cousin Abraham. That was the first time.
This time is the last one before A Levels.
And of the original company, only Nic was left. It's amazing how time has changed. Like a mulit-layered sieve, it pulls people apart, distancing them, separating them. That is what time does.
But fuck time.
I intend to cherish the wonderful memories that my close friends and i had together, the mountains that we have conquered, the places we've reached and the feelings we shared. I intend to hold on to the invisible strings between us, never to let go. I'll keep on pulling, fueled by memories, until we're close again.
So Terence, we may be distanced, we may not be talking as much as we did before, we may not even be hiking as much nowadays, but i would never forget how you stood by me, through the hard times in AYP, the unhappy times i had in school, and the times you bring comfort to my soul.
"I don't ever want to see you sorrowful as you are my best friend; i would rather say you are much more than the most best friend of mine. Hope you know what i mean, i am always here to be with you, Terence. You can find me anytime. Although few words exchange between us, but i wholeheartedly say i really am here when you are in need."
You once said this to me Wing, and i treasure it because it touched me. Now i am saying this to you, and i hope you will understand too.
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Reluctantly sled off the warm and cozy bed this morning to a cool, foggy day. Dressed in shorts and a khaki shirt, i set off to Ngau Tau Kok MTR station to rendezvous with 4 classmates of mine. Nic, Mike, Paul and Sally, who would be joining me for the hike around the Shing Mun Reservoir Trail.
Travelling from the eastern end of Hong Kong, we reached the Western end - Tsuen Wan - and proceeded to the nearest supermarket to stock up on rations and lunch. The total cost of everything was only $103.30 and that means everyone's contributing 20 bucks.
Had a little trouble finding the minibus there, but we found it after i asked for directions from a minibus driver and after Nic asked for help from 日军. It was minibus 82.
A short while later we reached the entrance and we started hiking up the hill. Dew drops adorned the grassy paths, and the smell of damp earth and morning blooms enveloped us. It really felt good to be hiking again!
We didn't really had a destination. The purpose of this trip is to experience nature again, and to "dow", which means to just "beat around the bush". XD So after walking to a dead end, we U turned met three dogs wearing cute doggy clothes along the way before entering a trail which seems really woody and isolated. Slippery moss clothes the rock strewn path and we had to be really careful... in case we fall on our backs.
Even though the journey through the woods took half an hour, it seemed like hours. Finally we emerged back into civilization... into a clearing with picnic tables and a gazebo. And there were the 3 dogs again! We were really surprised because they manage to get to the same place as us even though we took a different route! Anyway we had our lunch there.... tuna fish and pineapple slices with bread and crackers. Yum.... add biscuits to the list too!
After lunch, we had a short "nap" in the gazebo, but for most of the time, we took pictures and fool around with one another... funniest being Sally shitting. Throughout the whole trip, Sally was consistently peppered with teasing about being a hooker from Yau Ma Tei to the total amusement of everyone else except her. Oh well, about time to give her a break. Shall stop teasing her for 5 days. ^^
Went to the nearby stream to look for interestin rocks but unfortunately, there was none to be found. Thanks Nic for waiting for me! After we got back to the gazebo, there were many dogs around and Sally was really frightened; especially when she wanted to go to the washroom and a dog chased her! XD
We set off again after lunch, tracing back our route, and then we went down to a clearing with trees that have styrofoam-like barks. Had a great time enjoying the peacefulness and tranquility that complements the astounding scenery of the lake and island like shores. It looked like someplace from pugilistic drama series.
So we sort of relaxed and took even more photos for about an hour and a half... before being attacked by monkeys. The monkeys came one by one. The first one appeared when i was talking to Nic and i said look behind u Nic, a monkey! And Nic turned around and saw the monkey creeping to where we sat and since there were food strewn all over our place, helped itself to a WHOLE PACKET of crackers. He nimbly carried it in his mouth and climbed up the nearest tree. Paul immediately grabbed whatever food he could and walked briskly away, but the next monkey which came was a lot larger and it snarled at Paul, snatching the packet of bread from Paul's hands. In the meantime, the first monkey had opened up the packet of crackers and crackers were raining down from the tree. We backed away and watch the whole raid unfold before our eyes. Already, other hikers nearby was already watching the whole scene with amusement and taking pictures. We could only watch on with mouth agaped for another 15 minutes, before we cleared the litter and went away.
Back to the starting point, we part ways with Mike who had to go to his grandpa's place in Tai Po. The rest of us waited for a long time in the cold for a minibus. We finally got a ride by the third minibus. ><
The way home was really silent because everyone was worn out. We slept in throughout the train ride home. Despite that, i must say that we had a great time. There was the adventurous feeling in our exploration of places we've never been to, routes we have never walked, and there were funny times throughout the whole trips where we joked and teased each other, and there was a slight experience of danger when monkey raided our resting site. Yes, the weather may be bad, but it could be worse! So all in all, this last hiking trip before the A's is not below my other hiking trips!
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:05 PM
Friday, March 09, 2007
Feel really tired today. Maybe it's the weather, dark n cold and gloomy! Fuck that.. i hate this feeling! Physically n mentally lethargic.
My voice's also hoarse as well from yesterday's K session. Low n deeper than usual.
English Oral went pretty smoothly today. Mr Chu gave me very detailed comments and feedback and i value every last morsel of it. Went home after havin brunch.
Tonight would be fun, hoping it would lighten up our mood ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:39 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
I'm usually optimistic, but still i can't shake away this feeling of insecurity. Hold me. ><
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:21 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Had Chinese Oral Mock Exam today. Did exceptionally well ^^
5.5 points for Personal Presentation and 4 points for Group Discussion
Unfortunately, i will be having my REAL A Levels Chinese Oral Exam the same day next week ><
And i still don't know where the hell is the damn school.
Could someone please tell me what to take from Tseung Kwan O to Holy Family Canossian College in Kowloon City?
My rate of forward reaction for Chem today is slow due to an exceptionally noisy environment as well as too many good friends around to chat with me. XD
Hoping it would be better tomorrow!
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:39 PM
Monday, March 05, 2007
FUCK YOU ASSHOLE!
What the fuck happened to friendship?
Where the fuck have the good old days gone to, days where we could still laugh and joke about all sorts of things?
You once told me friendship is the most importatnt thing in the world bro... but now i see that you didn't mean it.
Wake up man! Stop being a worrying bastard!
Tell me if you are unhappy or stressed about something, anything!
Everything you've said before.....it is all a fucking lie?
Who am i in your eyes really....?
Is our friendship gone just like this? Just because of a girl?
FUCK! ><
OK, sorry for the outburst, but i have been supressing this issue a lot lately. If you have got an explaination for yourself, i'll gladly hear about it. I don't want it to become a misunderstanding. Our friendship is already on the rocks, it'll be a pity if it's washed away just like that.
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To my bro, Alex:
I finally realised what you mean after you talk to me about your predicament today. It must really hurt if you cannot be with someone you love.... but you have to endure this.... you have to believe in yourself...believe in her.
If you feel that the pain is too hard to bear, comfort yourself that this is only a couple of months, not a year, nor a lifetime. What is two months if you two can love for life? Be a man and take it in stride!
Show her that your love for her is unchanging, that if waiting for her is needed, you will gladly do it. You really are a good example of deep love. I take my hat off to you for being able to endure such trials just to be with her. Remember to talk to me if u feel unhappy about it. I'll always be here for you!
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To someone special:
Felt really good today that you finally believe in me. Even if it's 80%, i will not let you down. I know that only time can show us the way, so i understand and do not blame you for your lack of faith.
I know that words mean nothing to you, but words i still give to you, for i want to remind you that you are loved. Always and forever :)
I love you!
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Finally, Chem is over today. I totlally didn't have enough time to prepare for it. i was only 50% prepared when i sat for the paper. If i had 2 weeks to prepare for chem, i would have gotten A! So from tomorrow onwards, i will be working really hard. For Chem, for you, for my parents, for me, and for my future.
It will start from Chem, and the thirst for knowledge shall spread forth to other subjects.
Start with Chem tomorrow. I must. I will.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:51 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Today i started studying at 9:30am.... had lunch at 1pm for 45 minutes, then continued studying till 5pm, and then started again at 8:30pm, all the way till 11:30pm.
Total hours clocked = 9 hours and 45 minutes.
The result: Chapter 9.1 to 9.7 of Chem completed.
Sigh, if only i had 2 hours to study for Chem like i did for physics....for the past 2 weeks! ><
My Chem would have gotten A.
Fuck.
Repeating the same thing over again tomorrow.
Let's pull through this together my love.
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:52 AM
Friday, March 02, 2007
Yay! After two weeks of slaving over physics notes....drinkin cups after cups of coffee... late nights etc...
Thank God there is someone who is going through the same stuff as me :)
God Bless!
Today i learnt a new phrase... "我老母" ! From the great master Yuri himself!
OH MY GOD!
Today's physics paper was hellish. 3 hours in the morning + 3 hours in the afternoon - AFTER LUNCH!
I fell asleep.
Naturally.
15 minutes gone just like that....
Oh well, at least i still managed to complete the paper within the time limit...
心心"s english was funny though... had a great laugh everytime....
"Put down your pens!" = "Pull down your pants!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
^^
I hope to pass physics... even if it's just a bare pass....
Ok, someone told me that she will start to revise hard everyday....i wonder if its true..
anyway we shall see... i will still owe her a meal if she ever suceeds in doing what she says XD
Thats all for today!
See you all fuckers!
...as inscribed upon the runes 6:15 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
What can i do to make u believe me?
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:57 PM
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Went to sch for 3 papers today....
English Section B,C and E.
Really tiring....
Won English Essay Competition... Champion.... and got a Lego Calendar...
Went to take neoprints durin lunch...
Damn Nica n Nic had to blotch out my face with a fuckin mask ><
Grrr.... I'll get the banana scented candles ready!!
Went to the study area before dinner...finally completed 3.5..
Hellish 3.5.... ><
Hope to complete 3.6 tonight
as well as Nic's Memorial Book
I love you :)
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:37 PM
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Very tough day at the study area...
fell asleep and woke up dazed,
scared the shit outta ******
HAHAHAHA ^^
Actually this is the first time i felt so wierd...
waking up without realizing what the hell am i doing, where the fuck am i, and who the hell am i.
I thought i was alive in the dream, when it's only a dream...
Too bad i can't remember what it was about...
Went home n had a sumptous dinner yum yum
Then had some fun viewing pictures + red wine and a little bit of chemistry to top it off
What a fun day...
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:01 PM
Monday, February 26, 2007
No study area today...
:(
But there's still a home!
^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 5:30 PM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Sorry that i have let you down...
...thanks for forgiving me!
Be not afraid as we walk this path,
scorched with scorn and wrath,
and times may be bad,
but you have me in your arms,
so don't be sad.
Mind not what others say,
we'll have it our way.
No harm have we committed,
no one have we hurt,
when the conscience's clear,
there's nothing to fear.
Thick or thin,
we'll pull through,
for i exist in your heart,
and in mine there's you.
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:17 PM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
24th Febuary
A week from that Day when the Peach Blossom bloomed for the both of us...
A day I transit from boy to man....
A day we had our first true embrace
A day when I love you was first spoken aloud :)
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:22 PM
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Artist: Colin Raye
Album: All I Can Be
Title: Love Me
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
he said,"boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but i loved your grandma so."
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, i found this letter, and this is what it said:
If you get there before i do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long i'll be.
But i'm not gonna let you down,
darling wait and see.
And between now and then,
till i see you again,
I'll be loving you.
love, me.
I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray.
I know i'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.
If you get there before i do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long i'll be.
But i'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till i see you again,
I'll be loving you.
love, me.
Between now and then, till i see you again,
I'll be loving you.
love, me.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:52 PM
6 hours @ Martino's :P Work hard n KO Wave tonight!
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:00 PM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Oh well, there goes my first time.... given to you :)
Thanks for being a companion on lonely mountain paths,
for being a caring friend in my times of need,
for being my teacher on the art of love,
and someone special who is always there for me.
Could I Have This Kiss Forever?
Over and over I look in your eyes
You are all I desire
You have captured me
I want to hold you
I want to be close to you
I never want to let go
I wish that this night would never end
I need to know
Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could i have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever
Over and over I've dreamed of this night
Now you're here by my side
You are next to me
I want to hold you and touch you and taste you
And make you want no one but me
I wish that this kiss could never end
Oh baby please
Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever
I don't want any night to go by
Without you by my side
I just want all my days
Spend being next to you
Lived for just loving you
And baby, oh by the way
Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever
...as inscribed upon the runes 7:40 PM
Monday, February 19, 2007
Love you more and more each day, sweetheart
Here's a song for you!
It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me
Solo
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me,
For loving me
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:54 AM
Saturday, February 17, 2007
I was never alive
'til the day i was blessed with you
When i hold you late at night
I know what i was put here to do
I turn off the world and listen to you sigh
And i'll sing my angel's lullaby
Know i'm forever near
The one you can always call
Right now all you know to fear
Are the shadows on your wall
I'm here close enough
To kiss the tears you cry
And i will sing my angel's lullaby
So tell me how to stop the years from racing
Is there a secret someone knows?
I'll never catch all the memories i'm chasing
I'll never be ready to let go
And when the world seems cold
And you feel that all of your strength is gone
There may be one tiny voice
Your reason to carry on
And when i'm not close enough
To kiss the tears you cry
You will sing your angel's lullaby
Let this be our angel's lullaby
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:58 AM
Today is a special day.... when two stars crossed. Remember this day.
V Day/Last Day of school was really great... although it was really saddening... i managed to hold back my tears... thanks Nic, Sally, Anny and Mike.... it was too much for me after i read Carol's Letter. I really wanna thank Carol for being such a special friend. Perhaps i have let her down once, but i would not let her down again. And these 2 years, Carol is still a very special friend who will always be there for me no matter what...ahh.. words cannot express the greatness of the friendship between us. I just know that we will be forever friends.
Terence is another great friend, even though he speaks very little, and reminds me of Nova from Bleach. He is a steadfast friend no matter what. I will always keep the SMS he sent to me when i was really down. It made me cry, because i was too touched by it. It brought warmth into my heart....just when my heart is broken n ice-dead that moment. For these two years... i have Carol and Terence with me....so i am never alone.
Then came Form 7... Nica, Sally, Alex, Nic, Cathy, Mike, Catherine, Cynthia became even closer to me.... and we had great times together.... I wanna take this chance to thank them... Through ups and downs, they were all there for me... and they mean so much to me, i could sacrifice for them. I know not what each of them think of me now.... i know not what we will be thinking of each other in the future, but we will always be friends forever. I will always be there for you guys, just give me a call.... I will drink with u, whether u are happy or sad.
A lot of people turned up for BBQ that night... there was Nica, Michael, Sally, Candice, Au Yeung, Nic, BJ, Mike, Cynthia, Yuri, Zebra, PK, Paddy, Cathy, Catherine, So, Meng, Anny, Chairman... 21 people including me. Drank lotsa gin n had a great time. Talked about a lot of stuff... God Bless! Showed Nic a lot of pictures about my youth n Uncle Terence, i hope i didn't bore her. XD
The next morning... we went out to the park after chatting, and we found a dog. Which led to a great deal of adventure for the few of us who stayed up through the night! For more details, read the story here http://www.xanga.com/tsubasa_banana . :P Hahahahahhaha
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:49 AM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Tomorrow's the last day of school. Makes me wanna cry inside. Hope i won't shed a tear tomorrow. Really sad just to think about it. Like Nic said, we must all be happy tomorrow...enjoy ourselves fully.... so when the sun sets.... a wonderful memory we would possess, forever planted in our hearts.
I dread and anticipate tomorrow at the same time. It's kind of a mixed feeling. Other than being the last day tomorrow...it's Valentine's day.... and i can feel that something exciting will happen tomorrow. It's Felik's birthday tomorrow too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELIK!
Valentine's Day is a day for us to cherish those whom we love... those precious friends we have. It's a chance to specially show them how much they mean to you. Of course, there would also be a Valentine. I think i already have someone to be my Valentine in mind. When i was younger, i hear about people asking: Will you be my Valentine? or just, Be my Valentine. Yet the feeling isn't cliched at all. The atmosphere there, love is in the air. Just like what My Boss, My Hero taught me, Youth is precious, you only get it once. Cherish it.
I definitely will.
Valentine's Day, Last Day of school.... the first climax of the year. I already wanna cry now. I just hate farewells. Good things never last forever. Thats the harsh truth. But 7S will always be in my heart. Class 7S of 2006. I love every bit of it. Even those hateful people... even though i seldom speak of/to them, they are here for a purpose... to contrast the goodness of this class :P
I LOVE YOU 7S~! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:48 PM
Friday, February 09, 2007
The last Friday of my secondary school life. Only 3 more days of school and it's all over. 7S hasn't disbanded yet, but i am already missing everyone. I already miss the times we sit together at the stairwell, the lunchboxes we bring up to class for lunch, the lame jokes we share during lessons.
In the last few weeks, i found out that 7S is truly the most amazing thing that ever happen to me. I've never seen such a perfect mixture of totally unique characters coming together with a unity and spirit never seen before. This 1 and a half years of my life is really fun.... and i have learnt a lot. From friendship to love, from Chemisty to Chinese, all these i pray i will never forget. All the faces, i pray i will always remember.
Just thinking about leaving my friends makes me wanna ><
I WILL MISS 7S always!
P.S. Hey Nic, it's been tough for you the past few weeks, but i hope we both had great fun. Just 3 more days haha
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:35 PM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Artist: Fiona Fung
Song Title: Forever friends
Lyrics
I believe i can love
you give me your loving care
i believe in what we are
i don't know where i would be
without you staying with me
sometimes im lost in misery
you will take me all the way
im not afraidoh you and me
hand in hand to everywhere
amazing be my friend
oh friend
we are forever friends
oh baby
you give me all the love i need
you are the only one
I believe i can love you give me your loving care
i believe in what we are
you will take me all the way
as day by day
oh you and me
hand in hand to everywhere
amazing be my friend
oh friend
we are forever friends
oh baby
you give me all the love i need
you are the only one
you will take me all the way
as day by day
oh you and me hand in to everywhere
amazing be my friendoh friend
we are forever friends
oh baby
you give me all the love i need
you are the only one
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:58 PM
Friendship is like pissing your pants, everyone can see it, but only you can feel the warmth.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:14 PM
Friday, February 02, 2007
Happy Birthday Zebra!
A friend who is soooo good tempered that i don't think i have and will ever meet someone like him ever again. Kai and good natured, he is smart and studious, always a steadfast friend and always there to make u smile. Thanks for being such a great guy, good classmate and punching bag for the past 1 and a half years!
After talkin with some classmates todya, i think i have found my resolve! I will start revising Chem asap, focus on Physics and then get into Uni. Watch out PK, i'm not gonna lose to you so easily!!
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:46 PM
Monday, January 29, 2007
Hiding in your house, behind a wall of bricks may seem very safe.
But what's the use if you can't come out and play?
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:01 PM
Saturday, January 27, 2007
没有人能够告诉我
没有人能够体谅我
那爱情到底是什么
让我一片模糊在心头
在我心头
多少年以后有人说
爱情这东西不会长久
也许它确实很美丽
也许过了今夜不再有 哦
过了今夜我将不再有 哦
也许今生注定不能够有
眼看那爱情如此飘过
只有含泪让它走
她的背影已经慢慢消失在风中
只好每天守在风中任那风儿吹
风儿能够让我想起过去和你的感觉
只好每天守在风中任那风儿吹
风儿能够让我想起过去和你的感觉感觉
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:59 PM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Why love seriously when it only breaks your heart?
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:35 PM
Listen guys, we shouldn't be killing each other just because of a stupid decision! We are 7S! We are classmates! I think the most important thing that night is everyone having a great time after 1 and a half years of being together. At the end of the day, the main characters will be 7S, because it will be OUR Grad Din... not anybody elses's. We shouldn't spend too much time thinking about whether 7C should be doing it with us or not, because it is OUR Grad din, NOT THEIR'S!
Sure, we had some disagreements amongst our class, but we sorted it out with the voting already right? So we're cool. Now all we have to do, is to work together, and make our Grad Din a success!
Mike & Cynthia have been putting so much effort into this, but is anyone thanking them? If you've lost in the vote and got pissed, please don't take it out on the others ok? 7S, it's time we work together one last time and make our Grad Din a night we will never forget!
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:16 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.
Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.
Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.
Bury me(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me(away. away, away...)
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:42 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
| YOUR REPORT CARD: | |
| Category | Grade |
| Love | B |
| Friends and Family | A+ |
| Body | A+ |
| Mind | B |
| Finance / Career | A+ |
| Your Life's Average Grade: A | |
| 'What is your Life Grade?' at QuizGalaxy.com | |
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:12 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Thanks to a very special person, who lets me know that i am not without love. Thanks to that person, i can finally get on with my life... full steam ahead! Thanks for letting me know of your decision ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:19 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
為什麼相愛的人不能在一起?
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:49 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Your Birthdate: March 28 
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 6
You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:46 PM
There are so many things i wanna say, but lack the courage.
There are so many things i wanna do, but lack the faith.
There are so many things i wanna care about, but fear your response.
There are so many things i wanna repair, but I need your help.
There are so many things i wanna tell you, but I need your heart.
There are so many things i wanna show you, but lack the chance.
There are so many things i wanna give you, but I need your time.
There are so many things i wanna...
...as inscribed upon the runes 1:17 AM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me
But only love can say -
try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough,
if we learn to trust
I know if i could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye
...as inscribed upon the runes 4:42 PM
Friday, January 12, 2007
Sometimes i wonder whether i am Cupid incarnation. 2 of my best friends got steady within a year of knowing me. 1 was his first love, the other, her second. Now, another best friend of mine is going to be steady... Although i must say i am happy for all of them, i can't help but wonder love is stealing my best friends away?
Or is it because i can only shoot Cupid's arrow at others but not myself?
Although another of my best friend is out of love, i believe that he will soon find another, given his nature and number of girl-friends. Otherwise, i will shoot him too :P And myself as well. XD
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Below is a poem written by me when i was preparing for my GCE-O Levels. I think the mood back then was exactly the same now - the fact that i still can't find any sources of motivation. I know it's coming, comin right at me, but there seems to be nothing i can do but move slowly, when it seems to be accelerating. The calm before a storm.... i guess this is what it's like.
Hopefully, we can find our last breath to give the last push towards the end, my friends. Join my hand!
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Road to Victory
Wading through the freezing fires of hell,
figured there's less than 60 days to redeem myself.
Heck, even Jesus gets 40 days,
So i ask myself: What is 60 days?
Is it enough to make it all ok?
Is lying to myself the only way
to make myself feel safe?
0 days till Apocalypse
and every night i juz can't sleep
Tossing and turning with bloodshot eyes,
fearing the day Death comes with a scythe.
Sometimes i juz jump awake in cold sweat,
trying to forget the nightmare i juz had.
Its a good thing that i have friends
for i'll be drowning without them.
I'm really grateful to them all f
or saving me everytime i fall.
I think u guys know who ya'll are,
so lets join hands and fight the war.
Who knows, we might even win,
even though the odds might be slim.
For we are the ones who at least try,
and we march on till the day we die.
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:05 PM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Love Science Journal #4678397: A missing prerequisite pertaining to the Sally Theorem found
On January 9th A.D. 2007, Dr. Sally Au established the Sally Theorem after many years of research. Inspired by Dr. Anny Chan, Dr. Sally discovered that in the arena of love, both man and woman have the same power to make decisions. Although this was a widely debated controversial topic, Dr. Sally found out that although it seems like man have less power to make decisions when faced with a woman, it is not "yes"(it is not so).
Therefore, according to the Equality of Man and Woman, Sally theorem states that:
Decision-making power of man = Decision-making power of woman.
However, throughout this whole time, another eminent researcher in the Science of Love, Dr. Alfred Chan, was skeptical about Sally Theorem. "There are just too many variables involved" he says. Therefore, he set out to improve upon this theorem.
Upon closer observation, he found out that although the decision making power of both man and woman are equal, man's decision-making power is often greatly affected by women. This is due to the strong forces of attraction that woman possess, and as women-philes, every man's decision have to obey woman's decision. Therefore, even if man's decision is a delta-positive but woman's decision is a delta-negative, then man would have no choice but to conform to the delta-negative decision of women.
This was a shocking discovery at that time, and he began to investigate the properties that led to this interesting trend. After a long period of time, he finally found out that the principle behind this phenonmenon is man's love for woman as well as his fear of losing woman. In order to prevent repulsion, man's decision will always follow woman's decision, according to these:
Assumptions:
1)Woman's decision lead man's decision by cos 90.
2)Man's decision will tend to = woman's decision so that man and woman will not repel each other.
Therefore, in other to uphold the Sally Theorem, which Dr. Alfred calls the Ideal Sally Theorem, he integrated these assumptions with respect to the Sally Theorem so as to reflect upon the Real Situation. And thus, the Alfred Theorem was born. The Alfred Theorem states that:
Man's Decision-making power = Woman's decision-making power IF and ONLY IF 1)Woman respects man 2)Woman loves man too
THE END
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:52 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007
I'm sorry if u insists that i am the sole reason you screw up your relationship with ZZZZ. I only said things which i felt, and to be honest, that was the type of feeling u gave to me that time. But i accept responsibility for what i have done. Because i know that if i had not said those harsh truths, your heart wouldn't have been broken and you wouldn't have become so impulsive.
Forgive me.
I will do my best to solve your problem.
Your problem is my responsibility.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:53 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Another flower petal gets torn off again,
Because I don't have the power to stop the wind,
It floats to the opposite bank where you broke down in tears
As my only farewell gift
It's alright if you forget the promise we made that day
I walk a single step past this love
Why is everything tore off like this
A trail of stardust streams down again
Because I don't have the power to stop time
Don't lift up prayers, only one will do
It's alright if you wish for your own happiness
I allowed a pain of the same color
I blame it on mistakes of a different color
A light of that same color burns
Hiding a door of another color
Now, for your sake,
a faded flower falls down
Now, for your sake,
a faded star falls down
In that dream, good night
One more spoon in this unfillable love
Why does everything drive me mad like this
I feel a squall coming down on me on the streetcorner
Because there's no umbrella to protect from wounds
Don't look for ways out, only one will do
It's alright if you search for your own happiness
I engrave with a rhythm of the same color
I erase footsteps of a different color
I draw a scenery of that same color
And locked up a season of another color
Now, for your sake,
a faded night comes to an end
Now, for your sake,
a morning of a new color will come
In that dream, good night
SWEET DREAMS, BABY
SWEET DREAMS, BABY
If someday we meet again somewhere
Would we start over?
Is there a place to continue from?
We outdistanced the times we couldn't reset
Don't cry, kindness and weaknesses are not the same thing
I allowed a pain of the same color
I blame it on mistakes of a different color
A light of that same color burns
Hiding a door of another color
Now, for your sake,
a flower of a new color blooms
Now, for your sake,
a star of a new color falls down
In that dream, good night
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:42 AM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Today is the first day of school for 2007. Really glad to be seeing my friends again! Someone placed a packet of Vitasoy on Anny's desk this morning and Anny thought it was me. I kept denying it but i think she did not believe me. I hope she can have more trust in me. Anyway she was rather quiet the first half of the morning, like she didn't really want to talk to me... but when she found out after lunch that is was Michael, we had a good laugh. See if you will trust me again next time, Anny!
The first 2 lessons were boring. Spent it in the canteen reading from a chemistry past paper book. After that was chinese where my group have to go in front of the class and answer a question, of which i have no idea what it's about. Anyway... It ended horribly.
English = boring too... but really glad ms cheung is doing all she can for us.
After that was 3 lessons of Physics = Ultra boring. Ms Wong taught so fast that superman will find it impossible to catch up. I bet she only wanted to finish teaching the syllabus asap.
This was followed by another 2 lesson of chem. Super long day. Brain dead during chem lesson.
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I slept at 9pm last night though... and woke up at around 3:45, after having an impossibly vivid sweet dream. It's those dream where u will wake up regretting that you woke up. It's those dreams that makes you want to fall asleep again, so you can return to it. I woke up smiling at 3:45 and forced myself to fall asleep again even though i was more than awake.
In this dream, i met this pale girl and i think it's in school. Somehow it must be one of those camps where u have to stay overnight in school but anyway i shall not make too much sense of it. Anyway the venue was my classroom and it was night. But there was no sense of fear. I remember chatting with her or something. She told me she's a ghost, but surprisingly i wasn't afraid. I was in love i realised. After a while, she went into the classroom and laid down to sleep on a mat. I was sure there are people sleeping in the classroom. I was sure of that.
I followed and what we did was to snuggle up to each other. I found that if you place your head close to your partner's when snuggling, you'll end up smelling each other's breath. The right way i learnt from my dream, is to lean against each other, forehead to forehead. She feels human.
The most beautiful thing about this is the feeling i get. There is no erotic feeling even though we're snuggling up ot each other. A feat i deem impossible in real life. It was pure love.... affectionate love. But somehow, we had to be separated from each other. Then i woke up. And that's when i want to sleep again.
I think about this dream all day and when i got home, i want to sleep again so i could meet her again haha.... it's one of those dreams you'll never forget. The explaination found on a website are below.
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Meanings:
Class
Being in class in a dream can represent your actual school classes, or the time in your life when you went to the school that appears in your dream. Being in class in a dream can also represent the idea that you are learning, or being taught, lessons in your real life.
Emotional bond
A dream about a bond or closeness between people represents an actual, desired, or imagined bond in real life. The people in the dream may represent themselves in real life or someone else.
Romantic interaction
(physical romantic interaction) Usually, a physical romantic interaction in a dream represents emotional intimacy (emotional trust and openness) or a feeling of closeness with someone. It can be a replay of when you felt close to someone, or can mean you like the person or would like to know them better - and not necessarily romantically!
Night
Mystery or uncertainty; or stealth and sneakiness, or of a questionable nature. To dream that something is happening at night means that it's happening without others finding out, or that stealthy motives are involved. The dream may also be about something in your life that you keep to yourself and do not tell others about.
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It feels just like a relationship i am having with someone in my class now. A sense of uncertainty looms between us, and sometimes i think about all the possible roads we can take together, romantically nor not. Sometimes i reminiscise about our past days.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:06 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Merry 06 Christmas indeed. And now for a happy 07 New Year. New year = new resolutions right?
For me, my goal has been the same as last year's: To get into Uni this year.
But last year's woes was finally buried this day, when i got drunk after dinner and called XXXXX to talked about some....unfinished business.
I had to say sorry. I know i had to because i am bursting with it ever since the day i realised i was angry with her. I think it started because i got the impression that she took me for granted. Then i did some analysis for someone else....she found out and thought i was bs-ing her but in reality i wasn't... it was a really neutral analysis. So misunderstanding starts and a cold war soon ensues. Until a couple of weeks ago we still weren't talking. Then ice starts to melt, i had to open my mouth and soon it all came to place.
To XXXXX,
Sorry for the nth time. Throughout the cold war, i realised how much u mean to me. The very reason i try to avoid you makes me remember this fact. It's ironic really. The more i try to stop myself from talking to you, the more i remind myself how special you actually are to me. It was really vexing. Though i was really annoyed with your reaction to our misunderstanding, i am sure you were as well, so i'm glad we could call it quits.
We once said we would stay beside each other forever. This was a promise i intend to keep.
During the month which we did not speak to each other, i find myself asking this question: Will i be able to keep my promise? The answer: I want to, but i was angry too.
I really wish u could just tell me all your problems so i could be beside u and lend a shoulder if u wants to. But my pride prevented me from breaking the ice. Still i was certain i'd run all the way to your side if u had asked me to.
But everything's ok now. We can start again....
...as inscribed upon the runes 2:52 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Never Had a Dream Come True? Perhaps you didn't even gave it a chance.
...as inscribed upon the runes 2:57 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
Lately, i have been having some problems with friendship. Am i really too emotionally dependent and sensitive or are some of my friends really neglecting me? I have this good friend called C in class... and she is really one of my best friends... but lately, she seems to be treating me like a normal friend. It's like we don't hang out as much together, we don't really ask about each other... sometimes when she has problems she would tell me about it... but now she seems to be bottling them up.... I can only hope that this is temporary.
There's also this guy called N. I find him a great guy... very cheerful, and always there to help you. He's like a brother to me. Annoying sometimes too(when playing basketball), just like a smaller brother. However from time to time, i think he tends to put the opposite sex over brothers. I don't think he intentionally does it this way... i think it's more like he can't help it.
On a lighter note, i find Catherine to be really amusing! Her laughter is really contagious and her sense of humor is akin to mine ^^ Really pleasant chatting with her!
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:04 PM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Realised i havn't blogged for quite a few days... pretty busy week i suppose!
Didn't get the highest for chem test this time as i expected. Inorganic chem isn't my forte after all. But still i will work hard, and get the highest... this is my wife you're talking about here ;) If there is anything i plan to do, it is to score A for Chem and English and get into university. I really need to find my drive soon. It's the first of December already and i still feel like i'm in Form 6!
After being framed my Miss A on Monday, i have been getting really pissed at her. Thank God there is badminton on Friday... so Alex and I can let off some bottled up steam instead of thrashing her frail bitchy body around. Thanks US bitch!
Lotsa homework this weekend. Chinese essay, 3 sets of Chinese Comprehension past papers, and 1 Chemistry homework which comprises of 13 questions.... long questions ><
Havn't really figured out how to attain full booster mode yet...
On Friday, we had an interclass basketball match with 6S. ALthough we lost by 4 points... we still felt like we had won because everyone played their best... even i, who fools around all the time, played seriously. Scored 2 points during my 5 minutes in the court.
Had plans in making 7S: The Movie with Mike...
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:21 PM
Monday, November 27, 2006
Had PE today! Ms Wong didn't take that away from us.... couldn't, because we said insisted that we need it to celebrate Leo's departure to the states with a soccer match. Haha like i would play soccer! At least we had 1 period for soccer and the other for basketball during PE. Great practice for me too, since i am representing my class for the interclass basketball match tomorrow. ^^ Trust me Nica, I'll really put in all of me in that match~!
After PE, half the class went to the hall for our 7S badminton match. Great fun... i amazed myself with my speed and flexibility~! Too bad Terence and Yuri are wearing school pants, otherwise i could have gone all out with them! Terence has the speed... while Yuri has the techniques. U can say my speed isn't as fast as Terence and my technique isn't as good as Yuri's(his smack is really fast/hard), but i can match up to any one of them anytime... >=D
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There are some things which i have suppressed in the deepest abyss of my mind. Things which i do not want to look at anymore. Things i do not want to care anymore. Things which reminds me of how gullible i am. Slowly, i am telling myself, i would be numb and unfeeling towards this. Sometimes, i ask myself, what is it that i hate about her? Her attitude? Her lack of gratitude? Her couldn't care less independent character? I'm not sure. All i know is: I'll treat her how she treats me.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:06 PM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Friday:
Got back my Chem and Physics class test which i did on Thursday. Scored highest in class for chem again and managed to pass Physics, really happy~! Finally get to have a great meal with Cathy as we promised ^^
Played badminton in the hall after school and rock climbing with cathy. Cathy managed to get to the 2nd floor :) Badminton was fun... Yuri's pose was really funny though. Alex, Mike, BJ, Paul and I had a great time yelling and cursing at Miss A while smacking the shuttlecock really hard....as if the shuttlecock is Miss A's head. Really dislike Miss A.
Really tired when i got home. Tried to play Dark Messiah of Might and Magic but the damn thing kept crashing me back to desktop with a damn memory could not be "read" error message. Guess i'll have to wait for the 1.02 Patch. Slept early... coz i am so shagged.
Saturday:
Had tuition @ 11:30. Didn't know that i really had to pay tuition fees >< So i had my card suspended but i was given the benefit of the doubt that i will pay next week and so was allowed to attend this lesson. After tution, met up with Cathy at Tsim Sha Tsui and had lunch. Cathy skipped it... then we went WanChai to meet with Alex and we went to Top Salon to have our hair cut. The results after 3 to 4 hours was really funny. I am still not used to it yet XD Expecting more shocking comments from our classmates on Monday.
Sunday:
Tried to complete homework today. Dark Messiah still couldn't work. DAMN!
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:46 PM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
I've been having strange dreams recently. Just a couple of nights ago, i dreamt that i was with my brother in a chalet in Yuen Long and we were staying in this huge bungalow, yes, just the two of us. Then i remembered him saying something about going out. After some scenes which i forgot, i got into a car...can't remember what car it is, but i certainly seems like a Toyota Celica, which of course, happens to be my dream car ^^ So in i went, turned the ignition key, and stepped on the pedal. Initially i had no idea how to control the car then i realised i should be reversing, so i looked at where the handbrake was. Wow, it's auto....cool.... so i pulled it all the way back(where R is located) and stepped on the pedal, lookin back at the same time. I thinked i stepped on it too hard, coz i was reversing a tad too fast and people were jumping away just to avoid getting squashed.
Anyway, i seemed to have learnt how to drive in 5 minutes, and made it to the cybercafe where Choon Yeh was at. I find it really cool coz i have never driven before, but that dream really made me feel like i was doing it. In the cafe was i was asking him when he wanna go, i happen to see Zebra in the computer opposite me and the surprise was rather pleasant... because i never expected to see him there. At the entrance stood Cynthia and Mike too.. really funny~
And then just the other night, i dreamt i only took 2 papers for the HKALE.... Physics and English and i dreamt tt i got my certificate.... and on it were my scores.... both of which were A*, which means that i am among the top 10 in HK for that subject ^^
Well, so much for dreams, i'm hoping to have a good one tonight...
Went to Telford with Nica to buy his pair of Basketball Shoes today....Nike...HKD$486, kind of worth it ^^ Saving up money to shop for coats for the winter soon~
Ah, Grace Tan is going to come over Dec 13... maybe can go Disneyland together again :D
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:32 PM
Friday, November 17, 2006
Really happy today! Finally got the opportunity to experience the magic of Disneyland! I've always wondered why kids love to go to Disneyland so much, and how come i never have the urge to go to Disneyland when i was a kid(though i reckon i wasn't most kids). Somehow because of this, i feel that i don't have a complete childhood, but that doesn't really matter hahaha
Anyways i met P at Lai King and then we went to Sunny Bay together... when we reached, it was arnd 10:50 and i have to admit: The MTR to Disneyland is really beautiful. Imagine an MTR train with Mickey shaped windows, Disney-themed colors all over the car body, and once you step inside, you get mickey shaped handles and blue cushioned seats. What's more, there are display cases set onto the train wall showing bronze statuettes of Disney characters.
P led me to the elevator instead of taking the stairs to the concourse. The escalator door was designed like those kind of heavy iron doors u see in castles and dungeons and the interior was really well designed, with plenty of intricate details. Not an elevator u would see everyday.
The walk from the concourse to the main entrance reminds me of some courtyard to a large castle. Something like those leading to the Taj Mahal(the one with fountains leading all the way to the gate). Except that this one is paved and bordered with mowed lawns and trees of various types. At the entrance of Disneyland is a large fountain... with the whale in Pinocchio in the middle and 5 other statuettes surrounding it. Started taking pictures with my camera phone and found out that P doesn't like to take photos...in fact she would only prefer to take with a digital camera. So i didn't take any photos of her today.
Waited for P's friend's friend who works there for 15 minutes. Really long wait... and throughout we were commenting about how great the weather was today and this is true, the weather was perfect today, complete with mild sunlight, comfortable breezes, and a blue sky dabbed with sparse white clouds. Finally, that guy came,brought us in and gave us a ticket each. With just a smile, he told us to have fun and went on his way. And from here, our adventures began!
Since P had been to Disneyland before, she acted as my tour guide ^^ I think she really loves Disneyland, coz she wants to come to Disneyland again in 07 and 08, when there is an expansion to Disneyland. According to my guide map, Disneyland is divided into 3 parts currently, with main street leading from the entrance like a branch that reminiscence of cowboy towns. The main street is like a tree bark, and it leads to a fountain, where there are 3 paths to take, each leading to a different world. They are Tomorrowland, Fantasyland and Adventure land.
We headed to Fantasyland first and entered the Space Mountain. I didn't know what it was at first and it was kind of scary because it's really dim in there and the place where we wait for the tram to load/unload people reminds me of the roller coaster ride in Final Destination 3. But P told me not to worry, since all rides here are designed with smaller children in mind, so it won't be too extreme :P Once it starts moving, we entered a tunnel and all was dark....not a single trace of light. It's so dark it's absolute darkness and then we could feel the tram going up....and up....higher and higher... until we saw some lights.... and they were beautiful....stars, galaxies and everything u could think of in space. It was really exciting as we were zooming around the dome like we're sitting in a rocket through space...the view in there is so breathtaking(not to mention the ride) with a billion stars...... Also, there is the sudden twist and turns, dips and hikes...with ever increasing speed....until we reached almost the speed where i am stuck to my chair, unable to get up. It ended with a flash, like we're entering some black hole and then flash....it's all over and we're out of the tunnel. Later we found out that the flash was the instant where they took our photos. We were handed a number and then told that we could pay to have our pictures developed. P threw the card away lol
The next item we visited was Buzz Lightyear Astro Blasters! It was super duper fun coz we were like sitting in carts designed like a mini 2 seater space ship that moves on tracks. On the ship were 2 guns, and a score display in front of us. So our cart drifts along the track, and we were supposed to shoot at targets all around us. Everytime we hit a target, we get points. So P and i had a great time shooting at those targets. The vibration of the gun, the sounds and the ability for you to control the direction your cart faces adds extra fun points to this event! At the end of the ride, we saw a sign board that tells you what rank you are for a particular score. P and I are now officially Space Ranger 1st Class! ^^
After becoming Space Ranger first class, we decided to queue up for Autotopia. In case you don't know what Autotopia is, it's a highway system of electric cars that follow tracks. It reminded me of those carts in Rose Online... almost alike and the fun thing about it is that it moves only when u step on the pedal and stops when u don't step on it. The play time lasted only about 5 to 10 minutes, but the wait time was close to 40 minutes. Not worth it...even though it feels like driving a car without a driver's license.
After that we went to have lunch...chinese food. I took the opportunity to treat P since she brought me to Disneyland for free :D Thanks P! She had fried rice and i had sweet and sour fish fillet with white rice. After lunch, we met up with Valery and Joey as well as Valery's aunt. The 3 of them came in earlier than us, then after following to the Kodak processing shop, they queued to take photos with Pluto and Goofy while P and i headed off to Fantasyland. The castle to Fantasyland is the Disney trademark. Really baeutiful and even more beautiful when it's night time and the castle walls are illuminated by bluish purplish lights that gives it a dreamlike elfin look. We went to Fantasyland by train, an ancient lookin cowboy era train that loops around the border of Disneyland. There are only 2 stations, with one at the entrance of Disneyland, and the is another station at the direct opposite direction of the themepark, at the topmost border.
In Fantasyland, the first attraction we visited was the "The many adventures of Winnie the Pooh". I think Carol would have loved this :P Although we spend about 25 minutes in the queue, the ride was absolutely worth it. We had to get into this 4 seater honey pot and then it's a ride through a pop up story book! Everywhere we go, we see figurines and props that move, together with special sound effects that are well positioned. It's pretty hard to describe but it definitely impressed me! The lightings, especially, were well designed... and it's really unforgettable, how they created rain...it really feels like it was raining with those silver shimmering strands as well as the sound effects.
After exiting, we found out that we were snapped during the ride and we were handed a card and told that we could claim our photo for a fee. Of course, P took the card and wanted to throw it away, before she noticed how beautiful it was and gave it to me ^^
The next station we went to was the Sleeping Beauty Castle, which was in fact the oh so famous gate to Fantasyland. The description in the guide map says: "Walk through this magical portal into a timeless, realm of imagination and enchantment where childhood dreams come true" We thought there was a castle to explore and looked everywhere for the opening, but to no avail. Heck we even asked a guide to point us the entrance but apparently, it was so well hidden that we ended up walkin all the way to The Royal Banquet, a Beauty and the Beast themed cafeteria.
After giving up, we decided to try out Mickey's PhilharMagic. At first i thought it would be boring, since anything that has to do with Mickey is usually boring, but oh boy was i wrong. After picking up a pair of Opera glasses, we waited for like 10 minutes before a giant door(those kinda wooden ones u wld see in castles). Finally, for what seemed like eternity, it opened. In we rushed and sat in a most comfortable place and the show began! With a unique surround sound system, we we totally immersed into the whole 3D animation. It's about Donald duck screwing with Mickey's conductor rod and was sucked into various Disney cartoon sequences where the main character was singing eg. Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Lion King etc. Wearing those glasses, we could see the characters flying towards us, sometimes gems and jewels sparkle right before us, like only a metre close and many people tried to reach out and grab them, which i thought was really amusing. There was once when something flew towards us, together with the swooshing sound effect and many ducked! hahaha dumbasses! :P Also, when there was a scene where the banquet began in Beauty and the Beast and a pie flew towards us, we could smell the aroma of the pie. Apple cinnamon. Really an unforgettable experience! When we were swooshin into a time tunnel, there were wind blowing at us. When water splashes, we could feel them! Amazing show!
After these two attractions, its about time for the parade. It was about 20 minutes long and we saw all sorts of Disney Characters. Accompanied by dancers and a marching band... it was really enjoyable and cheerful. The snowwhite looks like a witch though :P Oh yea Cinderella reminds me of Princess Diana.
After the parade, we went to Adventureland, where i played with the Magical Coin press machine....where i insert a HKD$10 coin and watch a nickel or copper coin about the size of a 50 cent gets pressed by a rotating roller that has the mould of the desired picture. Out it comes...all in 10 seconds and piping hot too!
Next we went to take a raft to Tarzan's treehouse, which is in the middle of an island. The raft wait was pretty long and once we reached, we found out that the tree that housed the treehouse is entirely fake! It looked so real from afar and only upon closer inspection did we realise that it's fake! And it was so well made...no wonder tarzan's treehouse is so clean...no dead leaves, not insects etc! :P Basically the tree house just housed various objects that tarzan and jane used, as well as snippets from the story which tells of the history of the house.
Back to mainland, we headed for the river boat ride, which proved to be worth the looong wait! With a really funny guide who spouts lame jokes that surprisingly lightened the mood and builds the suspense, we drift through cannibal forests, snake temples, a volcano, hippopotamus and elephants that splashes water. There was even a place where there was a huge sorta gush of water where the guide shouts: Oh! The shit pipe burst again!" To the amusement of everyone and that forces us to take the volcano route where the water went up in flames and explosions were just metres from us. The crazy guide prayed to the water God which extinguishes the fire with a wave that comes out of a hole in the rocky cliff. ^^"
Lastly, we went back to Fantasyland and watched the Golden Mickeys at 5:30pm. It was a musical about Golden Mickeys, awards presented to deserving cartoon characters but throughout the half hour presentation of dances and singing, not a single Mickey was presented rofls! It was kinda enjoyable though and i just realised Goofy is really dumb/spastic. :P
With 6 minutes till the lighting of the christmas tree, P and i rushed to Main Street, and it was there that we saw a horde of people gathered before the tree, and apparently there was a band performance below the tree and none but those in the front could see what's going on. It was supposed to light up at 6:10pm but it delayed with spastic songs which made P and I groan non stop. Finally it lit up...a beautiful moment that played out before our eyes with total darkness(coz the surrounding lightings went out) and then with the lighting up of the christmas tree with sound effects. And then it was over...and P went to have a magical coin press of Winnie the Pooh and the whole family :P
So that's about the whole day....and a pity we couldn't stay till 8pm to watch the fireworks... so its 90/100 today! Thanks to P for her invitation...i really enjoyed today!!! ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:33 PM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
I guess she doesn't even treat me as a friend anymore. Perhaps i have done something to offend her, which i have no idea of. Anyhow, i'll remain passive about this relationship. I once promised her that i would never get angry at her, and even if i did, i would remember what i said that night and cease my wrath. I wonder if i am a fool to be bounded by my honour now.
I felt like throwing her into the blackboard today, lifting her by the neck like a puny insect and then just smash her repeatedly into the blackboard. Call me violent, but that's how i felt at that moment. It's amazing how quick things change. Just 2 weeks ago i was having great fun with her.
If there is something i'd like to happen now, it'll be to reset this relationship.
If there is something i can do now, it'll be to delete her.
If there is something she can do now, it'll be to reset our relationship.
Alex asked me today what problems i'm having now. I told him that i have no problems now. In a way, it's true. What i'm doing now is to escape reality. Escape her.
People asked me how i can be so friendly towards everyone, even strangers. I guess it's the way i perceive people. Everytime i meet someone new, they appear as friends on my radar. It's only after some time, when i get to know them better, then they either become good friends or assholes. In class, everyone is my good friend, some even my dearest friends and there is 1 asshole in my class.
As for her, all i have is a question mark. My radar have never failed me before... but she really appears as an unidentified anomaly. My reaction is to avoid her, because we are all afraid of things we do not know.... and i am only human.
I am confused by what others tell me about her, as well as my own experiences with her; they seem to contradict into a miserable agony.
May the Sacred Heart of Jesus be adored, glorified, loved and preserved, now and forever. Sacred heart of jesus pray for us.
St. Jude, worker of miracles, pray for us.
St. Jude, helper of hopeless, pray for us.
I surrender to your will, almighty God. I know not where else to turn. Please choose the wiser path for me.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:49 PM
Monday, November 13, 2006
We never talk anymore. She's a stranger to me because i know what she's gonna do next, but not what's going through her head. There is a gap between us, a lack of understanding, and that makes even simple communication impossible.
Do i hate her? Do i care about her? These are the questions i myself can never answer, because at this stage, it's not so simple anymore. There is no direct answer to how i feel; it's a matter of restraining oneself, constantly keeping one's urges in check...suppresion is the theme here.
I know deep down inside, i still give a damn about her and if she needs me, all she have to do is to say the word, and i shall be there as promised. But otherwise, i will stay away from her, because she reminded me that i am a mortal. Twice.
Looking at her just hurts. I feel betrayed. I feel used. I wonder if she hangs around me just because i'm fun. But when i have my own problems to talk about, she doesn't gives a damn. It's always 算吧啦. When i am down, everyone else notices, but not her. And this is what she meant by being there for each other. So much for good friends.
Is it so hard to just show some concern for those who cares about you? Is it so hard to ask someone whether he/she is not feeling well? I am not going to do that to her anymore, because i have been doing that all along and all i received is a fucking 算吧啦.
Fuck that.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:32 PM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
My 25 Choices...
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:39 PM
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. You Are The Emperor How You Life Your Life Extroversion: Conscientiousness: Agreeableness: Neuroticism: Openness to experience: You Are 19 Years Old Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.Your EQ is 147 
Your fortune:
In the near future, you need to be willing and able to defend those you love.This may be the time for you to step up and be the authority figure to those around you.It is time for you to be independent, to become your own person.You may need to look at your relationship with your father, or your relationships as a father.
Your Five Factor Personality Profile 
You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.
You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.
You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.You Are 68% Feminine, 32% Masculine 
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:49 AM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Joey had been the in service for closed to 10 years. All these years, he experienced the most intense emotions a human could suffer. The pain of losing a comrade close to you, right before your eyes. The cries of homeless orhpans in the night as a result of meaningless wars. The will it takes to fire at point blank range at a defenseless enemy child. The time he lost as a result of his loyalty to his country. All these and more, are what makes a full grown man shed tears in the middle of the night. Beneath the cold and emotionless exterior is a man who had been killing not only his country's enemies, but also his very own conscience, ever since the first bullet that went home into the heart of an enemy.
He had followed orders all of his life. As a lad, he had learnt to obey commands the hard way. Once, he went hunting with his totalitarian father and came across a female bear. Before father and son could silently sneak away, the bear spotted them and being protective of her cubs, charged right at them on all fours.
"Split up and run!" yelled his father.
But little Joey being 18 years of age and exuberating reckless masculinity through his pores, decided to stay and fight. His father faltered and look back, just in time to see the bear rear up on its hind legs, paws raised and ready to strike at a small-looking Joey.
Before Joey could even aim his shotgun at the bear, it was swiped from his hands with a force so great that he was lifted off the ground and thrown aside. His shotgun clattered somewhere nearby and with aching arms, he pushed himself from the muddy ground immediately. But just as he stood up wobbly with head still spinning, the bear charged towards him again and this time, the rancid maw was lunging for his neck. This must be the end, he thought. He could no longer feel his legs. Falling on his knees, he closed his eyes. Then he heard a gunshot, and another. He opened his eyes just to see the bear with wounds to its back, fresh blood spilling like a Evian fountain. It stood motionless for what seemed like eternity, and it slowly turned around and then charged-towards Joey Senior. ..
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:08 PM
Monday, November 06, 2006
I find myself getting pissed with one of my classmate easily. It seems like she has an attitude problem. Last time i used to find her really friendly, and yea, she might be a little direct at times but it may not be such a bad thing. Or so i thought.
Well, the fact that she is direct doesn't really matter. In fact, i value constructive criticisms from direct people. But sometimes it really gets on my nerves when she disses me for things like my handwriting WHEN SHE IS THE ONE WHO NEEDS MY NOTES! Go use someone else's notes if you don't like my handwriting! If you sincerely wants me to improve my handwriting, i don't think you will be doing this. >=(
I still remember the good times we had together. The times she was nice to me. The times she remembered me even when she is on vacation. She brings me stones and rocks from her trips. This i can never forget. She's still my friend now, but i don't really like her ungrateful attitude.
Perhaps i am being oversensitive, but i prefer to rant it out here instead of in real life. This is a place where i can display my inner emotions... because in real life, u will only see a happy, smiling Alfred who has his negative emotions suppressed. That's me for you.
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Monday, Nov 6 2006
11:20pm
Just got off the phone with mum. Feeling very sad and angry. Could not hold back my tears ><
Can't believe she threatened me again over my Aunt. Damn it, can't she see how torn i feel? I am trying my best to be filial, but there are some things which i can never control... and there are situations where i know not how to react. Right now, i am angry because my mum went crazy again... and because she doesn't know how lost i felt at that time. Blinded by her hate, she doesn't care whether i am filial to her or not and so i was judged by my action as a disobedient, unfilial brat. How on earth am i supposed to know that the right thing to do at that time was to fucking WALK THE FUCK OUT OF THE FUCKING HOUSE THE MOMENT THAT FUCKING AUNT APPEARED THROUGH THAT FUCKING DOOR??? HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL UNCLE WILLIAM AND GRANDPA THAT I AM GOING TO LEAVE WITHOUT HAVING DINNER AND THUS WASTING GRANDMA'S EFFORT COOKING EXTRA RICE FOR ME? Grandma loves me so much that everytime i eat at Uncle William's she always cook an extra 3 bowls of rice for me. And i was expected to be a fucking ingrate and waltz outta the house. And if i didn't do that, then i am a fucking unfilial child. Someone please tell me what the fuck should i do?
After talking with mum, i could not stand it anymore. Grandpa asked me what happened. I didn't say. Coz if i opened my mouth at that moment, my tears would start to flow. So i had to calm down, and then summarize what happened in a few short sentences before hiding in the bathroom, drowning in my own tears.
Angry at mum and feeling sad for her. I know she had a deep scar left by aunt. And she really does goes crazy at the mere mention of aunt. It's scary sometimes. She ceases to be rational and gets all emotional. It hurts to see her suffer this way. As a result, i feel like crying now >< I don't wanna see her suffer like this again. Please God, let me do the right thing next time something like this happen. Life sucks.
Fuck it.
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:04 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
I just realised that in my own laughter, others may find hurt. Sometimes i get really carried away and say some things that others might find sensitive, even though i really mean no harm or slight...
So i'm really sorry to Carol whom i have so tactlessly highlighted her unhappiness. I did remember asking her to take photos together with 7S but the events that happen after i do not really remember. Just wanna let you know that i might have highlighted the fact and truth that u are in 6S, but it doesn't really matter coz part of you still belongs to 7S.
During lunch we eat together, when we go out and have fun, we go out together, and heck, during school activities, we do them together. This may sound cliche, but what i'm trying to do here is to dispel any misunderstanding between us. I honestly have no intention of highlighting the difference, so please just treat what i said as crap, coz i seriously don't mean it.
On a lighter note, life is getting really interesting for me soon.
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:10 PM
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Yesterday was my school's sports day and being the athletic person i am, i participated in two out of the many events. (Actually i only ticked 2 events in the form because i was a afraid i would be too tired to compete for the other events.) In the end, i kind of regretted not signing up for the 5000m and the 100m Hurdles. ><
I've known Shi Min since primary school(that should be close to 10 years), and we've been through a lot together. I know that there had happened many unhappy things between us, but then again, we have countless beautiful memories as well. Maybe i have let you down, and i know no matter how i apologize for it, your wound can never be healed. I can only pray that you move on, and allow God and time to give you happier memories, burying your hurts and scars. Do let me know if you have any problems, i would gladly lend a listening ear, if not advice from my 19 years of experience. If there is one thing i would like to say to you, it would be: I have never regretted ever knowing you. Thanks Shi Min, and Happy Birthday~!
Went home at 12:50am last night... and took a quick shower and then went straight to bed. I was drunk through. Thanks to my two friends who actually listened to my problems even though i didn't say much... i still havn't told my bro Soh everything. But i felt a lot better really, coz i finally understand that it is for certain how she feels. The reason why my heart wasn't dead is because she kept sending me mixed signals. But now i daresay i am immue to these signals. I am never going to fall for them again~!
In the morning, i competed in the shotput and long jump. Got 5th in the shotput and 3rd for the long jump, with a distance of 5.37m. 1 bronze medal~! ^^
After lunch, ran 4x400m for my house(Saint Daniel's Purple) and came in 2nd. Silver Medal~! Lastly, i participated in the teacher-student 4x100m race, which we came in last~! But it doesn't really matter coz we all had fun running with out good natured Mr. Yim. All for the spirit of fun and camaraderie! In the last event which i did not participated but was considered an "Open" event in which everyone can run in it alongside participants, i experience both anger and bliss. I was running with my classmates for a few rounds when Mr. Choi yelled at me to get off the track coz i wasn't participating in the race. I was like WTF~! His reason was that i am making it difficult for the timers to keep track of who ran how many rounds. I was pissed at this excuse, because nonparticipating teachers could run too...and they did not participate in the event! So i said fine, and ran OFF the track, that means on the soccerfield, right next to the track. I did this for a few rounds, and another student joined me coz Mr Choi asked her to get off the track too. But after a few rounds, that fat motherfucker Choi had to stop us again. I was really really pissed at that time and i which he would like disappear or something. I mean, there is nothing wrong with running off the track! 1)We did not make timers confuse coz we are running off the track and 2) We did this for the sake of sportsmanship and camaraderie. I think that by running off the track, i pose absolutely no threat to the timers. Well, anyways screw him, my respect for him has gone down to zero.
However, Wing finished last in the race coz he did not want to expend anymore energy. He was like telling me i don't wanna spend any energy, just enjoy the run. So even though he finished last, he did not stopped throughout the race to walk, and his face wasn't contorted in fits of agony anytime throughout. But for the last 100m, our classmates ran alongside him OFFTRACK.... while we were running, i was looking at Wing, and beside wing, i saw our classmates, running side by side each other, smiling. The gentle rays of the setting sun made the whole atmosphere really unforgettable...like some scene in a movie where the main characters are gonna part ways soon. Indeed, we have about a couple of months together before we part ways. I will cherish the time we have together, 7S!
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:10 AM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
One thing which i really hate is: People talking bad about me behind my back AND then letting me know they did it.
Talking bad about me is bad enough already, but to actually let me know about how they had a great time, laughing about it really makes me mad. So today after my first two periods of lesson, i totally blew my top. But it was contained.
The pressure is unbearable. The feeling of being outcasted looms over me like a dark thundercloud. I was partly afraid. Afraid that i had been wrong all along, for treating them as my good friends. So i spent the rest of my days brooding over it. Finally, after a long struggle, i thought it through. I guess i couldn't really blame my friends. I know they are a fun-loving bunch and they meant no harm, but i really wished they could have told me what they were saying....
I REALLY HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DOESN'T TELL ME PART OF SOMETHING AND THEN KEEP ME IN SUSPENSE! ><
Thanks to Yuri, Cathy, Terence, Carol, Nica, Soh, PK, Paddy, Felik, Cynthia, Zebra, Mike, Michael, Unique, Catherine and BJ. You guys cheer me up when i was down. I guess this is what friends are for. Now i guess i know more or less who really gives a damn about me. Really touched...
From today onwards, i'm not gonna think about stuff that will only serve to make me feel troubled and confused. I had enough. Drown all my sorrows away tomorrow night~!
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:16 PM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Already i feel the invisible wall between us...
When we want to be near to each other, but can't.
When we want to tell each other our feeling's but can't.
When we seem to have nothing to say to each other when we are alone, even though there are a million things we want to tell each other.
When we both are wondering what each other is thinking about.
When we purposely pretend we don't care about each other, in case other people notice.
When we think about each other all the time, but find it difficult to tell each other how we feel.
We have reached the maximum point of friendship...the point of saturation.
Is this what we want? Do we want to suppress our feelings everyday painfully?
It is time to take each other's hand, and walk out of this confusion, into lover's paradise?
Shattered was my heart,
when first i asked.
Cold and cruel was your reply,
i thought i died.
Through friends and booze i awake,
in a drunken sober state,
i found my way again.
Or so i thought,
for all was well a while.
Yet your body tells me otherwise,
and thus my heart and mind fought.
Why do you treat me so?
Why do you make me feel hurt?
Why does our relationship feels like ice and fire?
When will this end?
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:29 PM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
... and he moved on with his life.
That was the end of the major event that happened during the past few months which i did not blog about. You may ask, "What is it? What happened? I wanna know!". Maybe you won't ask me just yet, but these questions are drillingholes in your heart, eroding away your resilience to know about the latest gossips of my life. :P
For a summary, over the past few months i had a fair share of academic problems as well as relationship issues. I wouldn't call it relationship problems coz that would make me sound like some problematic sociopath with no friends lol
But now, i guess i'm pretty much settled in life... Academic wise, i'm doing fine except for my chinese/physics. Chem and Eng are in top condition. Relationship wise, i have deepened the trust and faith between a few of my classmates as well as making good friends with almost all other classmates.
I've grown a lot ever since... became much more of an extrovert, as well as learning a lot of things about caring for friends. I also realised i'm attracted to alcohol... oh well, might as well start getting leaflets for Alcoholics Anonymous.
I think i am beggining to fall in love with 7S. The day we all part ways will be a sad day. Just a few days ago during morning assembly, i was invited to go on stage and give a short speech about my class. So i told everyone the truth. I finally understand one thing: Friends come and go. Oh yes, i've heard this phrase a million times in my life, but only when i was reflecting on what to say for that short speech, did i fully grasped the true meaning of such a simple phrase.
Throught our time on earth, we get the chance to meet other people, and sometimes, we walk on the same path for a while, and then when a crossroads come, we may part ways. It is not easy to find a friend who will walk the same path with you for the rest of your life. The day where u part ways will eventually come... it's inevitable... But true friends will stay in your heart forever, and wherever you go, they will be there with you and you, with them. Whatever you do, you will think of them. 7S will remain in my heart forever.
Choon Yeh and i may be miles away, but undeniably, he is all a brother could hope for. Our life patterns mirror each other as well! It seems like whenever he has good news, it would be similar to mine, or whenever some shit happens to him, similar shit happens to me.
As for relationship issues, i think mine should be resolved, although i still require time to fully forget those feelings. I'll keep trying and hopefully i would not be used and manipulated...
It's been a long time ever since i blogged and i kind of forgot how to phrase what i wanna say properly... hope i can warm up properly in this maiden entry.
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:44 PM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
...as inscribed upon the runes 3:14 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
The reason why i am writing this post is because one of my closest friends, XXX, messaged me one night on MSN, asking me to remove the picture of a very hot looking babe as my display picture. When asked why, XXX replied that it is degrading to women.
Believe me, i was really laughing my head off as i read that. Then i realised XXX was serious.
Now, i am writing here to explain to XXX why i disagree with XXX. This is important because i don't want XXX to get the notion that i disprespect XXX. I respect XXX so i removed my display picture while talking to XXX. But i definitely think that XXX got the concept of women degradation wrong.
Firstly, XXX should not have even used the words "degrading women" to describe my picture. The fact that such a term exists means that only women can be degraded and not men(whoever has heard of men whining about being degraded?). Therefore, XXX is showing signs of sexual inequality, implying that only women can be degraded simply by looking at a picture of a hot looking women(but not a hot looking men).
Secondly, feminists should not exist. The very existence of feminism tells us that feminists are biased towards the female sex which is totally ironic because they are striving of sexual equality. If you want to stand up for the oppressed humans of the female sex, please, join a human rights group. That way, u can help oppressed people and not act biased by only helping females.
If you want to know what is true degradation to women, then it must fit 1 important criteria: The action must cause the overall status of women in a society to be degraded, by oppression, violence or propaganda against their will. One fine example is the strict laws that women in the middle east have to comply with, otherwise they would be physically and mentally harmed, or even killed. The law puts the status of women well below that of a man, because she may not be able to enjoy the same liberty that men in that society can.
On the other hand, why my picture is not degrading at all, is that firstly, men and women in society have been portrayed provocatively. This is perfectly normal because everyone likes beautiful things and when there is a demand for such things, supply follow suit. However, the attractive man or woman is not degraded at all, because they are being admired by millions and millions of people. They are, in fact, glorified for their beauty and physical perfection.
From here on, i shall discuss the difference between lust and admiration. Lust is something that everyone has. No one can daresay they do not have lust or else i shall curse them to be struck by the lightning of heaven - repeatedly. Everything exists for a reason, and what people has labelled as lust, is basically the desire for the opposite sex fuelled by our own body's testosterone or oestrogen, to complete the reproductive cycle. Lust is simply that - in the extreme form.
Admiration, on the other hand, is the feeling for something which we find pleasant. In this case, i find the picture very pleasant, maybe because the colors are splashed at appropriate places on the canvas, creating a rather attractive image that appeals to the opposite sex(me). You cannot call this lust, because i am merely giving a very natural reaction. In fact, if you are supressing physical attraction for the opposite sex, then i feel sorry for you, because that will only make you unnatrually unhappy, for you have failed to realise that every instinct that God gave us is part of the biological process that is all very natural.
Finally, you asked me to imagine if that hot babe is my sister, then how would i feel. I would feel proud, because it's cool to have a hot looking model as your sister. If you have a hot looking brother, would you not feel happy as well?
For all those feminists out there, please do not be so self righteous and consider what your goals are again. And please stop proudly declaring yourselves as feminists.
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:36 PM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
They come in multitudes, swarms of numbers.
I raised my head and meet them face to face.
No, i'm not a runner,
No, i'm gonna brace.
Long have i tasted fear,
fear whenever they come,
and escape seems so dear,
but is this what i want?
No, i can't do this any longer.
No, i'm sick of running.
I wanna be a fighter.
To fear is normal,
but to fight back is King.
The difference between Hope and Despair,
is but the light from within,
when one gropes in a dark lair.
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:34 AM
Thursday, April 06, 2006
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:25 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:46 PM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Crappy shit. I just enrolled for tuition. Not just pure maths. But chinese as well. I am hopeful that these tuition lessons will really help me. I am stucked! No choice but to try this alternate pathway.
On a lighter note, i am picking up the guitar after half a year. Hopefully I may learn to play a song real soon. Also, AYP is reactivated. Finally, we're going to have a meeting next week. And i am finally going to set 3 of my 4 Categories into action.
Gonna hike tomorrow. I think it will most probably be Castle Peak(Hong Kong's Woodbridge) or Tai Mo Shan. Hmm, i have this feelin that my english is somewhat turning rusty. Like i'm not really using it. And so it becomes broken and .... not fluent? Time to speak english more.
In class, i just found Nica to be real funny and very similar to me. Loves to role play n shares my humor. On the other hand, i just realised i have one of my close friend, A, disliking another close friend of mine, B. How do i know? Well, i help to correct her english blog. Well, i hope that this misunderstanding clears up soon. I hope B will realise that he should change some bad habits of his. It's true that girls are attractive, but let's not forget that friends are equally as important. Never Zhong Se Qin You, if you can read my pin yin.
Wanted to play Lineage tonight, but i figured out that mine is only C2 client. So here i am downloading the C4 client. Moreover i forgotten my L2 password after i changed it. Now i have to send an email to GM Nitro to retrieve it. I hope he bothers lol
...as inscribed upon the runes 7:50 PM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Yup, this is the new drama series airing in Japan starring Choi Ji Woo and some Japanese actors/actresses. It was filmed in Japan and is a collaboration between Japanese and Korean stars. Really addictive drama, well filmed and feels like you are watching a movie!
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:53 PM
Monday, February 13, 2006
Went Hiking In Shing Mun Reservoir and then up Needle Hill and then down to a part of MacLehose Trail where there are underground tunnels where the British Soldiers used last time. Ranked 2nd best in terms of the trail...coz its windy and the trail is not very obviously manmade and the surroundings are left as untouched my man as possibble.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:50 PM
Monday, February 06, 2006
...as inscribed upon the runes 7:17 PM
Here i am blogging again. I never seem to blog when i'm feeling happy. Or have i just been lazy? Another reason to hate myself.
Had quite some fun hiking with Nic, Terence and surprisingly Carol with my Uncle Kit today! A pity that Cathy could not come.... she just dont have the "energy" for such activities, it seems.
Met Terence and Carol at Kwun Tong B exit at 9:30 am and then had a tasty breakfast at Cafe de Coral at an easy pace. Went to Park n Shop to buy stuff that we will be eating while in the mountains today. Stuff like tuna, baked beans as well as 2 loaves of bread. Then we took the MTR to Tsuen Wan and switched to Minibus. Had some time finding the Minibus to Tsing Long Tong, Green Dragon Lake. Though the minibus is heading in the direction of Tsing Long Tong, our destination is Ma Wan Ferry Pier. Met up with Nic and Uncle Kit there at 12 30. Thanks to 日军 and Nic for the stones! Thank Uncle Kit for the RPG head he found while hiking with his friends!
We set off towards the Clear Lake and then walk on the trail towards Tai Lam. In the end we took another route across Tai Lam, more hill roads than last time. Rough terrrain and up and down, soon we reached a gazebo that gives us a pretty good view. Almost watched the sun set! Timing was pretty good and was amazed that Carol actually could endure for so long. =)
When we get to the bus terminal at just outside Tai Lam Tunnel, the sun had just set. Perfect timing today!
After that went to dine at a posh restaurant with Uncle Kit. Was surprised that he was willing to treat me to such expensive stuff. The food and ambience was great, but unfortunately, it was too crowded and there was too little privacy to talk comfortably. Was brooding at that time coz i realised i have to visit relatives (bai nian). I really admired my Uncle Terence and i am ashamed that i had not thought of going to visit him earlier. And now, even though it isn't too late, i find it really awkward still to visit him alone. Not only him, but my other relatives. I just find it really wierd. Sometimes i wonder if it is right for me to visit them alone and not bring anything. It feel like im just there to collect money. Seriously, i'd rather them not give me money. I really hate to be misunderstood. Firstly, there will be almost nothing much to talk about when i'm there and secondly, it'll be a waste of their money on me. Feel bad.
Anyways im gna visit my Uncle Terence on Tuesday, i hope everything will be ok. Didn't have much plans that day other than hike Sharp Peak(tentatively) or sing K(even more tentatively) with my friends or stay at home studying and playing(most probably).
Singapore was great with friends around. Though it was hectic to bring them around, trying to think of INTERESTING places in Singapore which of course there aren't many. Had almost no chance to meet up with my SG friends!!!! >< Everyday was bringing them arnd....almost no time for myself. If only the trip was longer...then after bringing them arnd i can still have time to visit my other friends while they chill. Met up with Shi Min though. Still pretty much unchanged though she looks slimmer. Wanted to go catch a movie but in the end also not fated. Wanted to take a picture together for remembrance even more not fated! Ahh, woe be me.....
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:17 AM
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:56 PM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
There are things which i juz can't say,
which i can't tell
or embrace.
In my tortured mind they cling,
and linger as they think...
Askin me: When is the right moment
to say these things.
Of which i have no reply,
nor a hint, but a mere disguise.
As my instinct
abandons my will to restrain.
Yet i wonder and yearn, to
learn, of
when
i can finally soar free,
from this troubled, disturbed mind
of mine.
This thing,
something forbidden,
so secret and hidden
that causes me panic
and confusion
of a loss of what is
the rght thing,
to do.
-Alfred
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:18 AM
have demons within.
They never realise
until they sin.
Oblivious are some
deluding themselves.
Once i was
one of them myself.
I was a fallen
and stripped of grace.
Lurking in the darkness of a cave,
i hid my grotesque face.
Gradually day by day i decay,
till i became only
shades of gray
and my life hence became
dull and stale.
Days in darkness fleetingly pass.
In the abyss i turn crass.
Walking alone in vice and sin,
i didnt know beauty's depth is only skin.
My job was to taunt and diss,
when once i had loved and kiss.
Many a heart have i shattered,
but to me, that didn't mattered.
For still i derive pleasure,
from the misery of others.
Now as i clamber from my cave,
there's an only wish to save
my sorry ass from further disgrace.
I know i can never forget,
all the sins that i previously had.
I know they'll haunt me day and night,
that's what they do to wicked wights.
Jagged cliff face facing the murky bay.
Should i scale or should i stay?
Should i resume disturbing gays?I
was answered straight away,
by a blinding flash of light
that lovingly gaze upon my plight.
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:13 AM
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:05 AM
Monday, January 09, 2006
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:43 PM
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Though i'm suppose to be touching the lives of others around me like an Angel, i can't help but feel touched when i am affirmed once and again that people do care about me.
Just received an MMS from Shi Min which gave me a rather pleasant surprise. Although i can't open it with my crappy Sony Ericcson T230, my network provider sent me a link and a password, asking me to open it online. At first i was disappointed coz i could not open it...then i read that the Applet needs Quicktime 6.0 before it can work and asks me to "click here". So i did and it landed me on the Official Website for Quicktime. The words DOWNLOAD QUICKTIME PLAYER 7.0 boldly stares at me from the page so i thought that 7.0 should be better than 6.0 anyway so i went ahead and downloaded it. It turns out that i was very wrong. So i had no choice but to search all over the world wide web for an outdated version.... Half an hour later i found it after uninstalling the 7.0 and it turned out to be a lil cute rabbit XD Thanks haha!
Throughout the night i was helping one of my good friends in class to set up her Xanga as well as proofread her very first entry. Was really really touched by the way she tried her best into writing a 416 word entry. Really no mean feat for her.... it's like asking me to type out a 416 word essay in Chinese.... Was especially touched when she encourages me to work harder on my Chinese. Actually the reason why i am really bent on helping her as well as a few other classmates is because i received news that they will be expelled from school if they retake their HKCEE English and fail again this time. That will be very sad indeed!!!
Right now i need to reorganize my battle plans. I will try to focus more on Pure Maths since it is my weakest, followed by Chinese. For these Pure Maths, i will try to maintain at least 1 hour of practice a day and as for Chinese i will practice reading faster...speed reading!!!!!
Physics practise during weekends and as for Chem i am already paying 110% attention during class and plus some revision before tests i think i should have no problems.
English is just to try to do better for my Practical Skills Section next time.
I've realised it's pointless to sit down and whine about how poorly i did this time. Getting up and thinking about how to pay back is really giving me a much needed boost in self confidence! I believe i can really do better for my next tests! I wanna score as high as possible for my upcoming classtests to prove my worth! I don't wanna let down those who cares about me anymore!
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:17 AM
Friday, January 06, 2006
So here it is, my new blog layout.
The Peas on Earth one takes too long to load and cant handle youtube videos well so i'm sorry that it has to go = The peas were rather cute(even i think so)
Well, this will be my new blogskin for a while and you guys can check out some hilarious youtubes i've gathered recently.
Whats troubling me lately?
1) Exam results --> Pure Maths
2) Have to recite the gospel tomorrow during mass(in cantonese!!!!) ><
3) Have to lead the school's morning prayer tomorrow
4)AYP been rather inactive
5)3ooo+ words Chinese Book Report
Hmm feeling so stress suddenly....gonna sleep
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:05 AM
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Cathy, SLEEP NOW! =D
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:35 AM
Thursday, December 29, 2005
First of all i wanna wish Donovan a merry Christmas! Coz the tagboard not enough space haha XD
Secondly, i visited Donovan' blog recently and i am very impressed with the photos he took. You've come a long way Donny, and i find his black and white photos really thought provoking. Oh and grats on getting a SLR of your own. May we meet again!
For those who are interested, Check out http://www.donovanography.blogspot.com/
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:08 PM
Friday, December 23, 2005
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:44 AM
Monday, December 19, 2005
Woohoo! End of exams tomorrow! Think i can pass everything excpet Pure maths >< Heard some horror stories from cousin Eliz today. Apparently those China bastards are really inhmuan. Heard stories of kidnapping people and then just apply chloroform to you then cut you up so they can sell your organs? You'll wake up in a bathtub with your stomach open. Thats how scary it is. Makes me NOT want to go to China anymore. Makes me want to kill them all! Bastards! How come mainland Chinese are so greedy about money? Whatever happened to the traditional values that confucius teaches? F***.... this makes me so sick, i wanna throw up and then take a gun and kill them all. F***.....
Damn, im getting too aggravated. And im grinding my teeth again. I have bruxism >< Ok think positive things. Go K tomorrow. Hmm end of exams. Hmm.... Oh yes i was suppose to post a pic taken during one of my revision sessions with some classmates! In the pic is Terence, Felix and then me. Both of them are coming with me to Singapore on the 25th of Jan 2006 together with another female classmate, Sally.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:14 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Went to fetch mum and sis at the airport last night at 7:30pm and reached home at 10:30pm. We had dinner and i started work at 11pm. Finally get to sleep at 1am. ><
So sorry for not being able to meet up with Min on MSN last night. Mum arrived and i had to help her unpack lotsa stuff as well as complete my homework. Hope to catch you online soon or just send me an email to call for me! I will reply real fast!
My class won 5B today in basketball tourney. Gonna vs 7S in the finals this coming Monday. Heard they are the most powerful team in school... real scary.
Exams are coming and i'm still not confident with my Physics and Pure Maths. How? I really need to practise more maths. I hope i can make it in time. ><
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:37 PM
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Here's the bondline structure for Ozone if you need it. ;)
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:49 PM
Monday, November 28, 2005
Day: Monday
Date: 28th November 2005
Mood: Poor
Weather: Clear
Temperature: Warm! 20 to 24 degree celsius
Felt very bad today. Forgot that it was my mum's birthday yesterday on my way to school this morning. Tried to call her but her handphone wasn't switched on. In the end i called her after school and she wasn't too pleased. I am really bad with birthdays. In fact i can only think of 4 birthdays by heart right now if you ask me. One of them is mine. 2 of them have been wished belatedly. And the last one is Oct 19th, which happens to be my best friend's birthday and my sister's as well as my favorite A maths teacher's. Somebody please teach me how to remember birthdays without too much fuss???
My class won 5D in the tournament today. We scored 18 balls and they scored 13. Despite the victory i felt that i have underperformed and thus am very depressed regarding my performance. The rules are really a pain in the ass. I have to remember not to stay within the 2-point area for more than 3 seconds.
There's Physics TAS(Practical) tomorrow. Real crazy. I'm partnered with Cathy - again. She also happens to be my partner in class, the person who sits beside me. What a coincidence.
There is chemistry class test after 3 periods of Physics practical tomorrow. Groan! (It's after lessons too) Wish there'll be a break in between. Gonna top the class again(i hope). After 1 and half hour, i have only finished 4 pages of the Chem notes. The drawing of the unit cell took up a damn lot of my time. Hmm let me try to regurgitate some of the stuff i have been studying for the past 2 hours. Heck i might as well revise the two sections included in tomorrow's class test!
4.1:Metallic Bonding
Metallic Bonding: Electrostatic attractions between cations and delocalised electrons.
Giant Metallic Structure: A cationic lattice in an electron sea.
Factors affecting Metallic bonding are Metallic Radius and Valence Electrons.
The smaller the metallic the radius, the stronger the bonds. Thus the strength of the metallic bonds decreases down a group.
On the other hand, as the number of valence electrons increases, the number of delocalised electrons will increase and the charge of the cations will also increase, resulting in stronger metallic bonds. Thus the strength of the bond increases across the period.
There are two main types of metallic crystals. The Close-packed Structure and the Open Structure.
Close-packed structure includes:
1)Hexagonal Close-packed Structure(hcp) which atoms are laid out in the order abab... Such layering would mean the covering of tetrahedral holes in each layer, while leaving the octahedral hole uncovered. Since it is a close-packed structure, it occupies 74% of space. It has 6 atoms in its unit cell and has a coordination number of 12.
2)Face-centered Cubic Structure(fcc) which atoms are laid out in the order abcabc... Such layering would mean the covering of the tetrahedral hole by layer b on layer a and the octahedral hole by layer c on layer b. Since this is a close-packed structure, it occupies 74% of space. It has 4 atoms in its unit cell and has a corodination number of 12.
Open structure includes:
1)Body-centered Cubic(bcp). It has 2 atoms in its unit cell and a coordination number of 8. Its unit cell looks like a cube with 4 atoms in the top plane at the corners and 1 atom in the middle of the middle plane and 4 atoms in the bottom plane.
Properties of metals include:
1)Melting and boiling point: Usually high due to strong metallic bonding between metallic cations and the delocalised cations.
2)Hardness: Generally hard but ductile and malleable. Metals are hard due to the strong metallic bonding between metallic cations and the delocalised electrons. Ductibility and malleability are due to the non-directional nature of metallic bonding.As the metals are packed in layers, they can slip over one another if force is applied. Although the shape of the metallic lattice is changed, the metallic bonding and the giant metallic structure is not completely destroyed.
3) Electroconductivity: Metals are generally good conductors of electricity because the delocalised electrons conducts electricity.
Alloy: a metallic material which is a solid mixture of a metal and smaller quatities of one or more other elements(metals or non-metal).
Properties of alloys as compared with their constituents.
1)Melting point: Lower
2)Hardness: Stronger but less malleable and ductile
3)Corrosion resistance: Usually Higher
Examples of alloys:
1)Steel: Main metal, Fe. Other Elements, C. Uses: machines, construction materials.
2)Brass: Main metal, Cu. Other elements, Zn. Uses: pipes, taps.
3)Duralumin: Main metal, Al. Other elements, Cu. Uses: airplane parts.
4)Carat Gold: Main metal, Au. Other elements, Ag, Cu. Uses: Jewellery
Reason for increased hardness: Atoms of the element are different in size as compared to atoms of the main metal and this disrupts the orderly arrangements of the giant metallic lattice and hence prevents the layers from slipping over one another.
4.2: Ionic Bonding
Ionic Bonding: Electrostatic attraction between cations and anions.
Energetics of formation of Ionic Compounds:
1)Standard enthalpy change of atomisation of solid substance: Standard enthalpy change of a solid substance to sublime into 1 mole of gaseous atoms.
2)First Ionization Enthalpy: The standard enthalpy change required to remove one mole of electrons from 1 mole of a gaseous atoms in ground state.
3) Standard enthalpy change of atomisation of gaseous substance: Standard enthalpy change required for 1 mole of gaseous substance to dissociate into 1 mole of gaseous atoms.
4)Electron affinity: The standard enthalpy change when one mole of electrons are added to one mole of atoms or ions in gaseous state.
1st E.A.: Enthalpy change when one mole of electrons are added to one mole of gaseous atoms.
2nd E.A.: Enthalpy change when one mole of electrons are added to one mole of gaseous anions.
5)Lattice Enthalpy: Enthalpy change when 1 mole of ionic compound is formed from its constituent ions in their gaseous states.
Note:
1st E.A. is exothermic because energy is released due to the electrostatic attraction between the nucleus of the atom and the added electron.
2nd E.A. is endothermic because energy is required to overcome the eletrostatic repulsion between the anion and the added electron.
From the enthalpy level diagram of the formation of NaCl, we can see that the formation of NaCl from its constituents elements are exothermic and therefore more favourable.
However, the formation of NaCl from its constituent ionic elements are not that favourable since it it endothermic.
Hence, the formation of ions from atoms is not attaining electronic configurations of noble gases alone.
Ionic Crystal:
1)NaCl:
No. of Na+ ions in Unit Cell= 4 atoms
No. of Cl- ions in Unit Cell=4 atoms
Coordination number of Na+ ions = 6, lattice of Na+ ions = fcc
Coordination number of Cl- ions = 6, lattice of Cl- ions = fcc
2)CsCl
No. of Cs+ ions in unit cell = 1 atom
No. of Cl- ions in unit cell = 1 atom
Coordination number of Cs+ ions= 8, lattice = simple cubic (interpenetrating)
Coordination number of Cl- ions = 8, lattice = simple cubic (interpenetrating)
3)CaF2
No. of Ca2+ ions in unit cell= 4
No. of F- ions in unitcell = 8
Coordination number of Ca2+ = 8, lattice = fcc
Coordination number of F- = 4, lattice = simple cubic
Ionic Radii
1)Comparison of sizes with their parent atoms
a)Any cation is smaller than its corresponding atom because the number of electrons and number of electron shells are lesser in the cation than its corresponding atom, while both the cation and the corresponding atom have the same nuclear charge; thus the effective nuclear charge for the electrons is increased in the cation and the elctrons are drawn closer to the nucleus by a stronger electrostatic force.
b)Any anion is larger than its corresponding atom because there are more electrons in the anion than in the corresponding atom while both of them have the same nuclear charge and electron shells; thus the effective nuclear charge for the anions are smaller in the anions and the electrons of the anion experiences a weaker attraction.
2)Comparison of sizes of isoelectronic species
Isoelectronic species: Atoms or ions having the same number of electrons.
As the proton number increases, the size of the isoelectronic ion decreases because the number of electrons are the same and the effective nuclear charge for the electrons increases, pulling the electrons closer to the nucleus with a stronger electrostatic attraction.
This marks the end of my revision. Just a minute ago, Shi Min asked me if there is anything for her. The answer is yes because it lets her know more about my life =PPP
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:10 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Sundays are the second worstday of the week, primarily because they signify the end of a much needed weekend break.
Today, Uncle William brought his kids over and play. Played Worms Armaggeddon with Boy, Vivian and Joshua. Abraham who stayed over at my place during the weekends joined in as usual. Played from after lunch till 4 and then they switched to GTA San Andreas which obviously delighted Boy.
Downloaded True Crimes: City of LA after leaving the com overnight. It was GRRRRREAAT! Cool story, realistic gameplay and it's the TOTAL opposite of GTA. Nice to play as a cop after senseless bashing, killing and busting as a gangsta in GTA. Thanks for the intro Cathy!!!
Some smartypants posed as me in my Tagboard. If you noticed any of "Alfrediel"'s tags starting without caps, then it probably isn't me. I've even looked up on the IP and it is a Starhub MaxOnline address. Real amusing. XD
Basketball Tourney's tomorrow. I hope i will be able to help my class score and win the Championship! Leg's 60% healed but i think i can make it.
I am interested in Pure Maths. Gonna make it a good pass this time.
Been having weird dreams lately. 2 nights ago, i dreamt i was sent on a mission. And the mission involves me climbing over fences and scaling walls and running in a deserted huge courtyard of a mansion early in the morning, just to rescue my good friend Joshua's mom. Only saw Josh's mum twice and can't even remember how she looked like but that was what i am doing in my dream.
Then last night i dreamt that Shi Min sent me a valentines card even though it isn't valentine. It ended badly because i got awoken by Abraham's damn handphone early in the morning aaaaaaaah >< Nonetheless it was a good dream =)
Downloading Love in Magic and Seven Swords now. Wahaha. ^^
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:38 PM
Thursday, November 24, 2005
6 days ago, i noticed a tiny swollen area at my shin area that is facing the direction we walk. It wasn't really that painful and after i squeeze some of the tiny tiny amount of plasma out, i left it as it is, even though there was a little pain down there.
2 days later, the area became even bigger and walking started to become painful. I tried to squeeze whatever was causing such discomfort but all i could get were plasma. Real annoying. I decided that it's just some minor infection that would disappear in time and shrug it off.
However on Sunday, when i woke up in the morning, it really start to hurt, like someone giving that area a punch. Furthermore the muscles of around 4cm around the wound started to swell and when i touched it, it felt really warm and hard. Later on in the day it got even worse and i had to limp, and at night while i was trying to enjoy a dinner at a nostalgic chinese restaurant, a fever was developing. Everybody urged me to go see a doctor and frankly speaking, i have never seen a doc for 2 and a half years and never taken any antibiotics within that period. I took pride in that then, and i take pride in it now. But the pain was really terrible and as much as i want to let my immune system combat it, common sense tells me that seeing a doc would be a much more safer bet. After all, i have no idea what it is. So 10pm and in Yuen long, i was in Pok Oi Hospital, the 24hour section. Doc convinced me to take antibiotics, and told me that the fever has its origins in the infection and not a flu virus. Whatever it is, i just want to get better and so i obliged. Gave me Cloxacillin and Amoxycillin.
For the past few days i still have no idea what the hell it is...i just know that it became even redder and angrier, threatening to blow up any moment. Despite the antibiotics, the pain did not go away. The area affected however, was reduced.
Today, 6 days after first contact, i found out what it was. And it is a boil. In 18 years of my human life, i have only gotten a boil once, in my 9th summer. I still remember how painful it is when ever i sit or sleep(the boil is located at my right buttock near the side.)
What is a boil?
The symptoms of boils are red, pus-filled lumps that are tender, warm, and/or painful. A yellow or white point at the center of the lump can be seen when the boil is ready to drain or discharge pus. In a severe infection, multiple boils may develop and the patient may experience fever and swollen lymph nodes.
Boils are generally caused by an infection of the hair follicles by Staphylococcus aureus or staph, a strain of bacteria that normally live on the skin surface. It is thought that a tiny cut of the skin allows this bacteria to enter the follicles and cause an infection.
During the last period today, i discovered that my socks were bloodied. I realised that the wound had opened. Immediately i took a tissue and press against the wound, hoping to dry it. Instead even more tainted blood were spilt. I was closed to getting goosebumps.
The last period was chemistry, my favorite subject with my favorite teacher teaching. I wouldn't wanna miss it if i can. But then i realised that the bleeding were not going to stop anytime soon and after using up a pack of tissue paper and needing more, i asked for 2 more packets and went to the toilet. There i spent about 20 minutes squeezing whatever crap was in that wound. I noticed a white dot in the middle of the wound and i tried to scrape it off but it was replaced by the same white gooey thing beneath. So i pressed and pressed until the head of the boil bursted out. But that was only half the head. To my horror, no matter how i wipe at it it stays there, stuck at the opening of my skin, like some huge worm. It was white and almost elastic and very strong, like rubber. I couldn;t make it snap. So i grit my teeth even as goosebumps were developing and i slowly grabbed it by the head with two fingers and very slowly pulled it out. It slipped out from under my skin like a worm, like a magician pulling a rabbit from a hat. It's almost like puling an earthworm embedded deep in the soil. And to my greatest surprise, it was 2 cm long and after it was pulled out, there was a gaping hold of about 0.5cm left in my leg. I plugged it desperately with all the tissues i could find. They were all drenched. So Mr Wong brought me down to the school office and i tried to cleanthe wound myself. After getting patched up, i resumed lesson for a while and then went to Min Oi Clinic with Nic. Thanks Nic!!!!
At ming Oi, i discovered that medical fees are higher in HK than SG. Consultation fee was HKD$130 and then the doctor was almost crappy. He inspected my wound and told me that i have taken out the head and i will be on the road of recovery soon. He even suggested giving me a stronger version of antibiotics and asked me to discontinue my current course. In the end, when i asked him if it is really necessary to take the stronger antibiotics, he gave me two choices. In the end, i stuck with the antibiotics the doctor at Pok Oi gave me. THen he told me that dressing the wound would cost another HKD$50!!! I was almost on the verge of just walking out without dressing the wound. But i knew that since i have already come this far, it'll be foolish to ruin it all.
The nurse was crappy too. She squirm when she saw my wound and she tried her best to clean it and dress it. In the end, i was ushered out, and then i was given the medicine which includes a vial of purplish crystals. I think that should be iodine?
Now here i am, with my leg soaking in a pail of a purplish liquid formed when i dissolved some purplish crystals. Hopefully, i can recover by Monday and represent my class in an all out battle against 5D.... Inter-school basketball tourney!
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:44 PM
Monday, November 21, 2005
This Is My Life, Rated Life: 
7.4Mind: 
6.7Body: 
8.6Spirit: 
6.3Friends/Family: 
5Love: 
2.9Finance: 6.8Take the Rate My Life Quiz
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:03 PM
Friday, November 18, 2005
Click here to view the photos i took that day!
Yesterday was the school picnic for this year. We went to Tai Mei Tuk Recreational grounds and had a class BBQ by the sea with a majestic view of the Pat Sin Leng mountain range. Totally awesome. Didn't overeat as BBQ doesn't really makes you eat alot. Brought my SLR camera along to take photos as my digital camera is spoiled. =(
Haven't used my baby in ages ever since i bought the digital camera. However, ever since the camera's zoom lens was dropped by an ex classmate and sent for a repair, it hasn't been functional properly ever since. I can zoom in, but i have to maunually push the lens back if i wanna zoom out. Wondering whether i should buy a new zoom lens/2nd hand lens or send it for repair again =/
Anyways, i took plenty of awesome photogrpahs yesterday and i'll convert them into digital format when i can and upload them.
After BBQ, we rented bicycles at 15 HKDs each for the whole day until 6:30pm. THen we cycled all the way to Some Memorial Tower near Tai Po and back. My lil sis Annie helped me carry my bag in her biciycle's basket coz my bike didn't have one. As a result, i took care of her throughout the whole journey. Cycling is fun. Now i can cycle without my hands at high speeds but have difficulty balancing the bike without my hands at small speeds.
One particular part of the bking trip was a 400m long slope. It was really fun to just let the bike zoom down... without your hands at the handles. I like the feeling of being in control yet, having a small risk factor involved that comes along with the ineffable feeling of freedom as the wind blows against my body with arms outstretched. So i repeated the process 7 times altogether, including the return trip. Though going upslope is tedious, the fun is really worth it!!!
After the biking trip, we took a bus back into town, and had dinner at a classy restaurant. I had a set meal of Minestrone soup, followed by a main course of Grilled Fish with Bran Rice and Long beans. Of course, i chose HK's unique Iced milk tea as the beverage because i would not be sleeping that night. During dinner we joked a lot and even though we were split into 3 tables because there were simple too many of us, that certainly did not stop some of us from hopping from table to table.
After dinner, the rest of them head home while Nic, BJ, Felix, Annie, Candice, Paddy, Terence, Yuri, Zebra and PK went to a basketball court near PK's house. Of course i followed them and we played against the people there and amongst ourselves. Dang, i should have worn sneakers instead of boots... caused me to underperform =/
After that we sent Annie and Candice to the taxi stand. Annie was obviously drunk even though she won't admit to it. Paddy and Yuri left us after that as well and that leaves only Zebra, PK, Felix, Terence and Nic with me. After much discussion, we decided to go to the Performing Art's Cetner in Tsim Tsa Tsui and talk the whole night away. Beautiful night view of Hong Kong Island's Skyline by the sea and we talked a lot about the people in our class as well as.... well mostly about the people in our class.
After supper, they played cards and i exclude myself as usual so i got a little bored and slept. I think i must have said something stupid as i sleep. Because they were really strange when i looked at them when i awoke. In the end we really sleep at 5pm or so and we were awoken by the security the next day. Really amazing. The night was really cold maybe 18 degrees and long sleeve with a Tee shirt and Jeans isn't enough to keep the cold out. Heck even with my poncho on, i can still feel the cold through my jeans! Went to the MTR station with Zebra after that and i just reached home.
Yawn...going out to Ming Oi to collect my AYP booklet. For your information, AYP is the equivalent of Singapore's NYAA. I'm doing silver this time and i hope i will have enough time to manage everything.
After that i may go to revise my physics in the Self Study Area. Then there's a medical check up at 3:30pm. Busy day. Gonna sleep early tonight.
By the way Shi Min, here are the steps to install Lineage 2 into your computer and playing on a Singapore Private Server(free).
1)Download the Lineage 2 Chronicles 3 Client from www.lineage2.com
2)Install it but DO NOT run the game nor its auto patching/update.
3)Go to www.lineage2global.com which is the private server's website and download the All in One patch to play on the server.
4)Run the patch.
5)Create an account on www.lineage2global.com
6)Run Lineage 2 and login!
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:00 AM
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Shi Min, it's nothing you must follow, really, just something for you to think about.
First of all, you need to consider the two options ahead:
By taking the job, what will you lose? By going for the two camps, what will you gain?
If the consequences of not taking the job is great, for example, loss of a vital source of income or refusing the job thus letting the employer down, then you should compare it with the advantages of the camp. Camps happen all the time, but an opportunity for a job that you like or badly need is rare.
On the other hand, if you think that you will definitely regret not going for the camp, then either 1) Live with it or 2) Go for the camp. Maybe the job isn't really the job you want after all?
Unless of course, you can think of a way to go for the camp AND work at the same time. Things won't happen unless you want them to, and if you really want things to turn out the way you want them to, then work on it. There surely must be some negotiations to be made with your employer.
Whatever happens, just remember that the decisions we make determines who we are and we must have a clear conscience at the end of the day. Hope to hear good news from you soon!
...as inscribed upon the runes 7:47 PM
Monday, November 14, 2005
This is the map pf the route we walked on Sunday, 13th of November 2005. It is about 1/4 to 1/5 of Kowloon. Quite a distance. Click on it to enlarge.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:49 PM
Yesterday i went hiking with Abraham and Terence after archery lessons in the morning. Archery was great, taught us scorekeepin yesterday and after 6 tries, my lowest was 42/60 and my best was 50/60. Really happy with my results. This is because my results are gradually improving and i have discovered a new way to aim much more accurately. It's really simple. Simply draw the arrow and then aim really slowly from the bottom of the board up to the bullseye and then release the arrow. All this shouldn't take more than 2 seconds.
Anyways, Nic couldn't make it this time so we met Terence at Tseung Kwan O MTR station and then had lunch together in Sheung Tak Shopping Center's Cafe de Coral. Then we set off at the mountain opposite my flat at 2pm. The mountain had a mini fort there, and it's really run down so it must have dated back to when the British were defending the island from Japanese. The mountain had a strange name, called Devil's Peak but in Chinese it's called Pao Toi Shan, which means Cannon Fort Hill.
From there, we walk to the Wilson Trail and anded up in Ma Yau Tong Village. from there we walked right through the village and crossed the road up a mountain. The whole mountain was being quarried for its rocks. I'm not sure what they were mining there, probably just rocks for building. Anyway we walked a long stretch of road that borders the quarry and ended up in Clear Water Bay Road after an hour or so. Then we crossed the road and then walk up the road leading to Ma On Shan Country park. But Ma On Shan country park is really far away, probably another 5 to 6 km from the foot of Fe Ngo Shan which means Moth Mountain. It is the tallest mountain in Kowloon. Too bad by the time we walked up halfway, it was already late and the sky would turn dark by the time we reach the peak and make our way down. Along the way we passed by many large houses and some of them even looked like castles. I was later told that Fei Ngo Shan is an estate for the rich. So after walking up the mountain for 40 minutes or so, we had to make a U turn and head home. WE ARE SO GONNA CONQUER IT ANOTHER DAY!!!!!!!!!
Terence headed home after sending us off to Choi Hong MTR station. He lives nearby and we had to take 7 MTR stops home. Phew...thats quite a distance we've walked. About 1/4 of Kowloon i reckon.
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Today i was slapped with a chinese test in the first period of the day. Really didn't understnd the passage and i only answered half a question out of 2 questions. F for sure =( really sad that i could not understand key words and thus unable to answer. The passage was really difficult as it's an excerpt from some woman grieving about her husband and sort of an epitaph.
Argh!!!!
Then had maths test next. Quite bad. Think i can almost pass but lack a couple of marks. Physics was alright, kind of understand the last part of SHM and then started on Gravitation Force today. Last chapter of the term. 8 chapters to be tested on in the upcoming exams. I am so certain that i can do well if i only practise on past papers more.
Chemistry was pretty good. Learnt alot of new concepts and then he explained a question which i had been wondering for ages. In the end it was all about electronegativities. Taught us about illustrating Bond Structures today. Thank God i learnt it before so it was easy. Gonna have Chemistry test on Energetics tomorrow. It's gna be after school and lasts about an hour. Looks like we'll be kept back until 4 30pm or so. Then i will most probably go to Yau Tong and collect my student Octupus card, the Singapore equivalent of EZ-Link.
After school today i went to Ngau Tau Kok Self Study area located in the same building as the library. Borrowed a volume of Spawn's comics and then had a great time reading it. Now im at home washing clothes. Really absent minded lately. Grandpa's gonna scold me soon lol
Gonna revise chem. Hope to top the class again =)
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:03 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Phew! On Monday morning, i began the struggle to stay afloat when i dived into the sea of stress. When i reached the area known as school, it was infested with homeworks and lessons. Furthermore, i wasn't feeling in top condition due to the recent invasion of the flu virus in my body. So while swimming in physics lesson territory, i almost fell asleep. It is very dangerous to fall asleep in such a dangerous area, because if you are caught, you're in deep trouble. Nevertheless, i finally got a grip of myself and swam ahead, leaving the territory and entering pure maths waters.
It was there that i finally got a cramp and took a few mouthful of water. It tastes mathemathically. Due to the insufficient guide posts and buoy from the instructor in charge, i had no idea of the direction to swim. Soon, i found myself struggling too hard to stay afloat as i get drifted deeper and deeper into the Ocean of School. Just when i was almost about to give up and drown, Michael came to my rescue. He was swimming beside me all along, and with his instructions and encouragement, i began to grit my teeth and swam out of such a terrible area.
On and on i swam, and Tuesday Sea came and went. So did the Chinese Test which i met along the way in Tuesday Sea. Yes, i think i can pass that test! Maths territory was deadly as usual, leaving me even more puzzled than ever, but i had to recover quickly. So was today. I had only lunch period to recover from the shock that i face during the swim in maths territory. Often making me stare at a Signpost for 15 minutes and still not being able to solve it. I am not sure if i drifted out of it, because i seem to be heading in the wrong direction ><><
Hmm let me practise my chinese first.
Carol同学很暴力，喜欢用武力解决问题，人等。我认为这是个不良习惯，因为会闹出人命而人命关天，杀人是伤天害理。其实Carol同学还没有杀到人，但是我还是小心一点，因为她说“如果她能够解决我，一早就解决了。” 我现在想起都觉的害怕，不禁冒冷汗。谁能救我呀？！
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:02 PM
Monday, November 07, 2005
Yesterday, i meet up with Nic and Terence after archery with Abraham. Weather was too hot and dank yesterday, and affected my mood to shoot. Wanted to have lunch at the cafe which we had caught a whiff of its fragrant cow belly soup. It was still a scent worth remembering. ;)
Unfortunately, we could not find it this time... it seems either the wind was bad or our noses were untrustworthy. In the end, we had a crappy lunch at some small but expensive cafe. Uncle Kit came and join us then and then we set off to 伍淙village, which is at the wasit of Tai Mo Shan.
Hiked up the mountain and we passed 4 main waterfalls along the way. Such majestic scenery. The water was icy cool...and air is filled with the cool vapor of the falls. The first one was at the waist of the mountain, and it was very tall, about 5 storeys high. Found a pinkish looking rock and picked a small part of it home with my hammer. The next waterfall was even taller, roughly 7 storeys high. Met some Americans and they asked me what i was doing with a hammer at my wasit. When i told them i love collecting rocks and minerals, they asked if i was a Geologist. To which i replied no, though i aspire to be one!
Third waterfall was not as grand as the previous 2, but it's pool was much larger and there were many huge rocks across the pool where people sit and rest. Though there were lots of bees buzzing around, i didn't matter to me since i love bees. I think they are the cutest of all insects alive. Every one running around trying to escape from the bees though. The bees would burrow into your hair and i find it really amusing. 日军seems to be the most frightened. He ran around repeatetdly in circles just to avoid those bees. Little did he know that they can fly faster than he run and that it was always behind him. One bit his nipple or something and he yelled. Real funny. I did not believe that bees will bite. Having played with bees for such a long time, i only know that bees will sting, but never bite. But after playing with those bees there, one of them was crawling over my arm when i felt it nipping me. It wasn't really painful, but it was sort of like a really really minor pinch. Of course i know that it meant no harm but i was curious. So in the end i came up with a theory that they probably came here to take in minerals through the water from the rocks and since there are sweat and those mountain water on my arm, they were probably helping themselves to a feast XD
The last waterfall we went to was awesome. Although it wasn't really grand, the climb up was really tough. There was a cave about 20 metres deep and i went in with 日军 who has a torch. It was probably man made, since the cave has another adjacent "room" near the end. Probably by those Brittish soldiers. Found some calcite vein and used my hammer to take some. Really beautiful crystals. Though they aren't big and distinct, i am pleased because it is more than i expected from this trip. Outside, Terence was busy throwing rocks into pools as usual. This time its getting larger and larger. I noticed that he seems to get a kick out of throwing things. Must be some sorta minor compulsive obssessive behaviour thingy. =P
After resting for quite some time we began the journey down the mountain and then when we reached the bottom we washed ourselves up at the small cascade near the temple. By the time we board bus 64 back to Yuen Long, it was already dark. During winter, the day is short while the night is long.
Had a sumptuous dinner at Uncle Kit's. Natalie was there too, though Aunt went to someone's birthday party. Took 268c home and almost missed the stop at Kwun Tong Central if Abrham had not woken me up. Nose bled once i reached home. Havn't bleed for a long time. That;s it. I AM heaty. ><"
Too bad my digital camera is spoiled. Will be using my SLR camera soon. No choice.
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Today was terrible.
Lack of sleep probably plus feeling sick. Body still battling with flu virus. So far i have not shown any symptoms of the flu virus, but i can feel it from the hot air that i exhale sometimes. OR the warmth that i give out inexorably. Got better after break and had to rushed down to buy packet lunch so i can make it in time for the 3-3 meeting held during lunch break.
Chinese test tomorrow. The last Chinese test results have not yet been announced but only 1 person passed. This goes to show how hellish the Chinese education is here in Hong Kong. I think there is only 0.0001% chance that person is me! LOL
After school, Cathy and Candice and I went to Self Study Center in Ngau Tau Kok Library. Marked an essay for Cathy while she corrected my Chinese Journal entries. Then had to leave at 5 45pm to rush home for dinner.
Phy test on Wednesday. Hope i can make it!
Real sleepy now, gonna sleep.
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:58 PM
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Woke up really early today to Yum Cha with my Grandma and Grandpa. Of course, Abraham came as well. Sumptous meal and all, but in the end when i wanted to pay for the meal, as instructed by mum, my grandma prevented me together with the disapproval of grandpa, so i reluctantly have to back down. I'm never good at all this....
Went back after breakfast and began building a wardrobe with Abraham. Successfully built it after 2 hours or so. Was pleased with the result ... even though the instruction sheet was a little crappy and the parts weren't numbered. Chatted with Shi Min for a while after that. It has been a long time since i really talked with her. Feel like kicking myself for unable to wish her Happy Birthday earlier >< Must be due to the stress from tests and commitments i've been experiencing lately. Nevertheless, i've decided to make up for it when she gets here. How could i ever forget my first love? (Albeit a secret one) Hope she enjoys the movie i've got for her. Though i saw the movie for sale in many disc shops in here, i never repurchase it again. I want to make it a memory, so that it's impression would always be at its best, untarnished by repeated viewing.
Continued with Physics and Chemistry after a nice afternoon chat with Shi Min. Then had sumptous dinner that grandpa cooked. "Fried Wool" is the name of the special dish. Consists of deep fried vermicelli till its crunchy and white, and then topped with a delicious mixture of stir fried beef strips and sliced bamboo shoots and mushrooms. Had 3 bowls of rice. Getting fat soon lol
Many may wonder why the title for this blog entry. The fight refers to the battle between the flu virus and my immune system that is taking place even as i am typing these words. Already i can feel the effect of the virus within me. The tastelessness in my mouth, the itching of the throat, the warm air that i exhale.... I MUST WIN THIS FIGHT!!!!! Hate getting sick. Makes me skinnier and weak.
Archery's on tomorrow! Hope i can increase my grouping. Then gna hike again with Abraham, Terence, Nic and Uncle Kit. Gna be fun i suppose ^^
Considering joining AYP soon. It's the HK version of NYAA. Gna do Silver this time.
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:49 PM
Friday, November 04, 2005
Played Tennis during PE yesterday. 2nd time ever. Never knew it's so easy to send a tennis ball vanishing into the sky soeffortlessly. Finally managed to control my strength and managed to learn backhand and the forward swing.
Today i had to start the morning prayer in front of the school again. First Friday of every month. Talked about how bird flu is scary and how the world leaders need to cooperate if a global epidemic is to be prevented.
Then in class i played the ending of Final Fantasy 7 during English lesson and then gave a 5 minute film review on it. I think it went pretty alright ^^
Chemistry started on Chemical Bonding and Structure. Damn tough. Just the part about Metallic bonding he can explain 1 hour. HCP arrangement in abab... form etc Singapore don't even teach those. Entropy changes is out of the question. Chemistry here is much deeper and much more fun!
Had Chinese Class test today. Managed to understand the passage fully but ended up with insufficient time to complete the second question. Hope i can pass this one! Top the class in English. Many people wanna bash me up. Many asked me to tutor them. Think i can proofread their essays if they want me to. Helping each other's the way to go!
Realise everyone is fun loving in class. Well maybe except one or two. Played "sets" Chemistry style. Felik, Terence, Carol, Unique, Sam, Soh, Amy was around. We've found 8 sets ;)
Physics test coming Wednesday. Gonna own it!!!!!!! >=(
...as inscribed upon the runes 7:28 PM
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Last night i had a weird dream. In my dream, i was married and have 2 kids, a boy and a girl. My wife's surname is 黄 and although i forgot what's the middle character, i remembered that the name ends with 固。 I told my class mates about this and Sally advised me to repeat the name/think about it before i sleep tonight. Perhaps i should try again. ><
Zebra dropped Chemistry while PK dropped Pure Maths. Now i'm the only person in school to take 3 ALs. How stressful. Pure maths is difficult as hell. Think it's twice as difficult as the syllabus in Singapore. Heck, its equivalent to the F maths in Singapore. Singapore's C Maths is a mixture of Pure Maths and Applied Maths. Applied Maths in here is considered an AS Level subject(AO). I think my only solution is to buy a Maths revision guidebook and practise like hell. Hmm thinks of Ichigo and Naruto....
By the way, the last episode of Bleach is uber cool! And so was the episode today! Argh! I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK'S! WHY DO THEY ALWAYS HAVE TO DRAG THE STORYLINE! GRRRRR!
Downloaded plenty of old cantonese songs from a webbie which Annie gave to me. Kudos to her!
Hmm i'm listening to Alan Tam's 'Romance in a Rainy Night' right now.
There's PE tomorrow and we'll be doing pull ups as part of the fitness test. Also, there will be 2 periods of English tomorrow and i might be chosen to talk about a movie for 5 minutes in front of the class!
So i have chosen to do a film review for the film Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children It is basically a Japanese Animated movie based on a very popular computer game, also known as Final Fantasy 7. For those who have played the game, they will see the main character, Cloud Strife, take up his huge buster sword again and save the day! In the movie, the planet earth is still recovering from the almost apocalyptic convergence of the lifestream that happened 2 years ago. Unfortunately, many have become afflicted with the intrusion of alien lifesteam cells in parts of the body, and it hurts like hell at times. So this movie is basically about how 3 human-alien hybrid have plans to destroy the world so as to remove all human lifestreams. One of the 3 villains is a guy called Kadaj. At the final scene, he absorbed the original mother of the alien lifestream into his body, and took the form of Sephiroth. In the game, Sephiroth is the archenemy of Cloud and is really powerful. It is almost impossible to defeat him.
Anyway, there are several reasons why i gave this movie two thumbs up. It's partly because this was the best computer animated movie i have ever seen! The characters are really realistic and they are really beautiful. The downside is that they are too perfect, and they never shed blood even when hurt! Too perfect. Another reason is because the storyline is delightfully fanciful. The creator must have lots of creativity to think up monsters and settings and amazing fight sequences.
My favorite scene is near the end of the flim, where Sephiroth taunted: "Would you mind telling me what is most important to you so that i can have the pleasure of taking it away?"
Cloud then coolly grabbed the sword and then did an awesome finishing move on Sephiroth, after saying "There is nothing that isn't important."
Think i'm gonna end here now, getting late, wanna sleep....sleepy, can't sleep late now.... :/
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:35 PM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Early week was pretty stressful...performed a "10 minute Halloween English drama" on Monday. OnTuesday, i had to give a 3 minute newspaper report in Chinese as well as did a physics retest.
However i flunked the retest again =( Really wish i can get better in physics. I think it has to do with my foundations. Solution anybody? Maybe i should practise my physics after school on odd number weekdays.
Thursday was pretty ok. Stayed back after school to build Haunted house after Chemistry test in the last period. Everyone goraned and moaned after the test because it seemed really difficult. I don't think it's that hard, but it is VERY tricky. I'll also have to work harder because even though i top the class this time, my marks aren't all that great when compared with others out there.
Building the haunted house was fun. Almost 2/3 of the class stayed back to build the haunted house. Throughout the whole process, everyone sang and laughed and it was a really great time. I have never felt such unity in any schools in Singapore before. The education system in Hong Kong is really different. Or maybe the people in Hong Kong are much more warm-hearted. Somehow, everyone started shouting my name throughout the whole thing. I feel...special?!
Anyway, Friday was Halloween. There were no lessons for the whole day except 2 periods of Chemistry. That was when we were told there is retest on Monday. Everyone groaned again. . .
On the following Monday, there will be Chemistry retest for me as well as Pure Maths Test on Polynomials. Really stressful so i'm not going hiking this Sunday anymore.
After school, the Halloween Party officially started, and my role as a vampire began. Thanks to Grace who helped me with my makeup after a bunch of girls came oever and made me look like a clown. XD Acting as a vampire is really difficult. You have to know when to scare and roar. i finally decided to stay motionless and wait for people to come to me. It worked for most of the girls but the boys were mostly startled or got violent. A bunch of lower secondary school kids act tough and bashed me up. Kicked and punched. Nasty lil buggers....
Thanks to Nic for her drink and Lil Sis Annie for her help in fetching me green tea. I would have thirsted to death....coz i really shouted till i have almost no more voice left.
When it all ended, i end up dining alone in Cafe de Coral coz everyone went to steamboat in Kwun Tong. Too ex for me. Met up with Felik and Terence after dinner so i could accompany them for dinner. They just finished with english tuition at 8:30pm. Tutor was KO Ten. I think he's bullshit because he looks more like a salesman than a decent tutor. Guess tutors nowadays are much more commercialised.
Archery's on tomorrow! Gna do my best ! ^^
Wish for the following week: Do well for all my tests. Especially Physics and Maths.
...as inscribed upon the runes 8:38 PM
Sunday, October 23, 2005
It's Sunday Morning 7:06, and i've just awoken and showered. Now i'm sitting in front of the computer, sipping coffee, blogging this entry and waiting for my cousin Abraham to finish showering. Yup, you got it, it's time for Archery again! This time, we hope to get there fast by taking MTR to Yau Tong and then changing to Bus 259D.
Had a really great time this week. Wonderful week i guess. Think its because there aren't any tests this week! Next week will be hell though, especially Monday and Tuesday. It seems like many have come to read my blog once again. So TAG ON guys! =)
Wanna remind my sis not to use the com secretly anymore. You are not suppose to. If you are caught, you will face the gravest of consequences. I am gonna report the next time i see you!
As for Donovan, i'm anticipating your arrival! Please do email me or something just before you come, i'll fill you in on my contacting information. ^^
Cathy, thanks for dropping by and reading this blog. I know you've advised me to type it in Chinese, but i cannot fully expressed myself if i do that. Besides that would take a really long time. And also, if i'm a useless piece of charcoal, you are pork chop! =P
青蛙， 多谢你抽时间来读我的这一个日记。 你曾经提议我用华文来写日记，但是我无可能全能发挥我自己，我的感受。我也想告诉你，如果我是废柴， 那你就是猪扒！=P
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Just got back from a whole day's outing. Had archery lessons from 9am to 11am this morning and then Abraham and I paid $20 each to continue practising for the whole day. We then shoot non stop from 11am onwards until 1pm. Had great improvement and managed to score perfect bullseye once today, as well as many in the center circle. Realised that we have come a long way from Day 1, when all my arrows missed the target. Now i never have to pick arrows, but have to pluck them out from the board, which i find very hard, coz i use too much Newton to project my arrows XD Poor Abraham got hit by the bowstring many times today, and bruised his elbow area. But he improved a great deal too, and is very accurate.
Met Nic and Terence at 2pm. Then we took quite some time walking to the Light Bus station to take bus 71 to 河背村. We took lotsa cool photos in there, and everything was pretty smooth sailing.
Climbed up the cascade path and then walk a big round around the lake behind the dam and then had picnic in the middle of the dam. Tried fishing with a bottle but failed. Before we left, Terence threw the bottle into the lake like a slingshot. Thank God no one caught us lol
Had some beer once we reached the bottom and took a light bus to Tai Lam Tunnel area to take Bus 268C back. Grandpa was grumpy that we returned so late. We didn't know he have to have food by 6:30pm or his diabetic condition will start to act up again.
Thanks Nic, Terence and Abraham for such a wonderful day!
...as inscribed upon the runes 7:01 AM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Had half day today because our whole class agreed to go to St. Benedict's Secondary in Choi Hong after lunch to support our classmate, Ah Ming in a Public speaking competition.
Guess today was pretty relaxed, because the first lesson was pure maths, which was over really quickly and then followed by 2 periods of english in which we watched a short documentary from Discovery Channel on Designer Babies as well as looked at Miss Cheung's ultrasound scans of her baby earlier this year. It was really shocking to see some humanoid creature moving inside another human's body. To speak the truth, it makes me a little nauseous...
After break was 2 lessons of P.E. in whcih we journeyed to the sports ground near Kowloon Bay MTR station and played baskeball. Really suck at shooting now...but my ball handling deproved a little bit, find it difficult to play And 1 tricks on my friends, or am i just to sensitive to hurt others? Perhaps i need to be a little more 忍心.
Had lunch in 大快乐, after i rushed back to class and packed my bag. Noticed that a group of my friends are beggining to isolate someone. They find that person really talkative, in fact that person is so talkative that he doesn't think before he speaks. These are their words. I find it really sad that this is happening, because in every class that i have been in, there will always be someone the whole class will discriminate against, and that person usually will not have a great ending. Either he will become weirder, or he might even do poorly in his studies and leave the rest of the class. Either way, it's really extreme. Had a quick lunch, only 15 minutes. Long queue and I but managed to queue early. Unique and "Lil' sister" Annie had to sneak behind me so they can have their lunch in time.
Sat with Zeon, Felik and Ah Wing during lunch time. Was told that HongKongers have a very hectic lifestyle, always rushing for time, and is very very serious. There isn't even enough time to have a slow decent meal. That's why they say htat i'm not accustomed to eating fast. Wing said he noticed that i have difficulty swallowing my food. I was amused by what he said. Indeed i had some difficulty; the pork chop was rather dry, but the other reason is because i am already very full. 23 HKD for a large meal with cold drink...super great deal!!!!
On our way to Choi Ming, i walked back and forth the class, because some classmates walk faster and so were at the front while some straggle behind at the back. Nic told me some interesting stuff about another classmate. Seems like this classmate is saying things that makes other people misunderstand him more again. While i am impartial to the content of what others claimed he says, i am worried that he will be digging his own grave. Already 1/4 of the class cannot stand him... however it is not beyond hope, if i were him i would feel really sad that i am outcast by my friends. So i decided not to give up on him, i will try to be more patient with him and try to understand him.
This, i would need the lord to help me. If i am close with him, my other friends would start to distance themselves from me, for fear that he would follow me if i were to join their gatherings. Now what am i supposed to do? I like the idea of separating them into 2 groups of friends. 1 group is the group which i like to hang out with, while the other group contains only 1 guy. However, i have a feeling there will bound to be clashes somewhere ><
After the competition, which Maryknoll didn't win a single thing, even though some of us really did well... we walked as a class to the MTR station. As we walk, there were some of us who doesn't want him to follow us. I shall not divulge about the whereabouts of where we went or what exactly happened because it is really secret. I shall just say that the group of friends were satisfied because their "target" did not follow them. WHat happened to the "target" was unknown but i heard he followed another classmate to MTR station.
Another case of discrimination and outcast. How can i help him? Or should he help himself? I seriously do not know. May God guide me with such a thorny relationship issue.
Speaking of relationship issues, i have just confirmed with many sources today that someone in class likes me. I find it extremely awkward and depressing because seriously i only treat that person as a friend. In fact when we first met, i find her extremely helpful and thinks that she's gonna be my good friend. But now after hearing rumors about her feelings for me for 2 weeks, i kind of began to avoid her subconciously, a little because i don't know how to react, and a lot out of fear of giving her the wrong signals. I don't want her to think that i feel the same towards her. Depressing! She really helped me a lot when i first came to Maryknoll, but i feel bad everytime i see her because i will feel my body edging away. I feel like an ingrate. I wish there is something i can do to return her favor but at the same time, not give her wrong signals. If this goes on, she will forever be a stranger to me... let's hope this will clear up soon!
Following Monday is my turn to give a chinese newspaper report, act in an english drama during English Period as well as hand in my maths notebook for verification.
Tuesday there is Physics retest. Only 7 in the class passed. Average only 35% =(
Thursday(27th) must stay back after school till late at night to build haunted house for Halloween(28th). Gna act as a vampire in the haunted house. Wee!
...as inscribed upon the runes 9:51 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Crap, flunked physics class test again. 3rd time already.... i really need somebody to save me! Who? Who can hear my cry? T.T Guess it's really time i get into a tuition class. Wants to enrol in the one in Amoy PLaza, but Yuri and Nica said Miss Wong recommended one which is better. Gonna check that out after school tomorrow after i asked Miss Wong about its whereabouts.
Cathy corrected my Chinese Culture mini essays' mistakes this morning. Really appreciated that. I can't believe she reads every single word and helps me find out all the wrong words and phrases which i used.(Which was alot). Hmmm, but then again, she kept laughing as she read my essays.... i think she seems to enjoy it. I don't think i wrote anything stupid or dumb, but she keeps saying the examples and descriptions i gave are...weird...and it's not wrong, but she doesn't know how to describe it. Damn it...............
Had 3-3 Meeting with the rest of the catholics in the school today. Even the principal participated. Was a little chaotic and almost impossible to remember all 20-30 people's names in 20 minutes but i managed to have a few laughs. Was asked to join the executive committee....seems like i will have more jobs to do in the future.
After school, went down to 6C to check out the halloween preparations. Seems like we're gna build a haunted house on the 27th of Nov, and then run it on 28th Nov at night. 5 bucks per entry. Real cheap. Gonna act as a vampire.
Had tea with Wing, Candice, Cathy, Zebra, Sally, Yuri and Mike. Cathy is sick. Gna bring her some Anti-Flu tea bags tomorrow. Hope she gets well soon. And hopes she doens't pass those virus on to me. Zeon came after Cathy left. Too bad! XD
Half day tomorrow coz we're all gonna support Ming in some Public speaking competition. Whee....
Go Ming go!
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:27 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
A school holiday today!
It's another day in paradise. Woke up at 11am after playing basketball with Felik till 11pm in Kwun Tong Sports Center last night. My pecs ache like mad. My triceps scream in pain. After washing up, I revised physics till lunch time. Interestingly, my cousin Abraham had half day today, and so, after being dismissed from school at 11:45pm, he journey back home, had a change of clothes and then hurried over to my place for lunch. Grandpa was glad to see him, and as usual, Abraham's mum is worried sick about him and called him thrice today.
Hope she learns to take it easy soon...
Watched the first 3 episodes of smallville after lunch. I especially like the part where Clark's icy fortress rose from beneath the snow. Cool(no pun intended) looking fortress with huge arrays of crystals! Wished i live in a place like that! It turns out that Abraham knows of smallville too, so i lent him my previous collection, which i have burnt onto CDs.
After 2 hours of smallville, we read the blogs of various individuals. Basically, they are my classmates' and i had a great time reading them. Even though i'm not good with Chinese and doesn't have the patience to read everything, browsing through and understanding the way they express themselves on certain identical issues is interesting.
Seems like there is school tomorrow. Must remember to check out the tuition center in Amoy plaza after school tomorrow. I wonder when will i top the class in physics lol XD
Come on Alfred, is it really that hard?
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:51 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
On the 9 th of October, a Sunday, i went to Tai Lam Country park and hiked a few mountains with Uncle Kit, my cousin Abraham, classmates nic, Zeon and Terence. It was really fun. We initially agreed to meet at Kwun Tong MTR station and then have breakfast together, but then i forgot to bring my handphone just when i was reaching Kwun Tong, so i had to make a U turn and make a grab for it. Without my HP, contacting Uncle Kit would be more troublesome. So in the end, Abraham and I told them to go ahead, have breakfast first and then meet them in 大快活 later. Had a breakfast of egg and ham and macaroni, treated by Abraham.
Then we went down to the basement of Millenium City to check if the supermarket had opened already. Not surprisingly, it was closed. So we took the escalator up and then hop onto Bus 268C to Yuen Long Town Center! Bought a can of SPAM and Tuna as well as a loaf of bread. That's when Uncle Kit show up after i called him with my precious HP 15 minutes ago.
He brought us to West Rail and took the train to Siu Hong and then Light Rail Number 601 to Butterfly. We hang around for about an hour or so at the Sun Yat Sen Memorial Hall, Archery Range and the Jockey Club. Man the bows looks cool....gan try them soon with Abraham! Also, it's my first time getting so close to horses. Never realise they are so big! Their head is twice the size of mine, which makes them scary. =S
Next we took the Light Rail to some place and then took bus 53 to Tsing Long Tang Ferry Pier near Tai Lam. That was a really long wait ><" There we began our trek by stepping on the surface of the sea by the pier, so as to prove that we hike from 0 ground feet! Interesting ritual. Then we walked up hill for about 25 minutes before settling down near some picnic tables for our lunch. Had sliced spam with bread, tastes great =) After lunch, we took a great long look at the map to prepare ourselves for the trip ahead. Though there were many stations to cover, we were more than anticipating the trip ahead...we just want to start walking and taking the trek head on. Met some cars in the initial stages of trek, called them cheaters lol Then we stopped by some scenic place and took some pictures...found a walking stick! Cracked a lot of jokes and after many hours later, we reached a sort of waterway, where we picniked at some tables nearby. Threw bread crumbs into river to feed the fishes...really fun! Then from there we took a wrong turn and ended up walking along the waist of the mountain range, for close to 6 km....we thought it would never end, on and on we kept walking and there is always a waterway on our left, where the mountain is. On our right we begin to see the Highway, can't remember what highway it is, but it comes out from a tunnel. Eventually we reached the end, took a break at the mini cascade. It has really cool and refreshing water. I just love it. Wing almost killed himself when he threw a rock vertically up instead of forward to splash into some pool! Then we trekked downhill, corssed some mud pool(real scary) and then went to the higway to catch a bus home. The next day it was the Sports day Semi finals. I ran 4x400m in the end, despite the fact that i did not sign on for any events. I ran for my House, Saint Daniels(Purple) and got silver! Really happy cause i suck at running and performed well even though i hadn't ran in ages. Crapped with some of my classmates at the Delifrance in Telford plaza after everything has ended. Teased Cathy about Zeon. Think she is really embarrassed. Must stop teasing her. Though the following day is a holiday, i stayed at home throughout. Did revision and homework. Tough essay on cloning and civilized world. Friday was Phy test. think i didn't do well for it again. Must really work harder, contemplating tuition now. If i enrol for tuition, it will be with a few classmates, cause they need it too. But it will be expensive. Sigh. There was a change in seating arrangements today. I was brought further up the row by 2 desks and my new partner is Cathy. What a marvellous coincidence. Need to communicate more with her then. Thank God my good friends are all around me, Felik and Yuri are right in front. Zeon and Nic behind me. Paul is nearby too! ^^ Sunday was my frist archery lesson. Left the house at 7:30am and reached the place at 9:05am, phew! Took the MTR and then switched to West Rail heading to Siu Hong and then Light Rail to Butterfly. Gonna try taking MTR to Yau Tong and then taking 259D directly to Butterfly next week! First shot suck. It turns out i chose the wrong bow and all my 6 shots missed and flew off target. I chose a left handed bow ><" Then the bowstring from the first shot snapped against my elbow and thank God it didn't hurt much. Though there are two small spots at my left thumb that is bleeding. Poor Abraham got hit red near his elbow! My form improved with the next 6 arrows and by the end of the lesson, the coach said i have a lot of potential. Really glad to hear that. Hooked onto archery so fast lol
Uncle Terence and his wife came to fetch us afterwards, together with my two little cousins. We bought a few packet lunches of roasted pork and chicken and then had a great meal at his place. I never tasted such great char siew/roast prok rice in SG before. Though i must admit i kinda miss the Hainanese Chicken Rice and Thosai in SG!
Uncle Terence took us out to cycle near his estate after we're done and waiting for Uncle Kit to come. Too bad my little cousins are still too shy to play. Really shy! Anyways we cycled to some village with large ponds and a mountain view at the back! Oh man, what a wonderful place to live in!!!! Saw people fishing and there were waterfront village houses. Mind you, village houses in HK are 3 storeys Terraces..... really great place to live in except that you must own a car or else it will be inconvenient. Played skipping stones until people tell us to stop because they were fishing. Uncle Terence found a rstrange piece of rock with red insides and a dark grey exterior. It appears to be a fossil, but it could jolly well be cement pressed with gunny sackes, hence the patterns.
At around 2 30pm, Uncle Kit arrived with his friends and brought us to 河背村. From there we hiked up the mountain that the Tsing Irrigation Dam is built. 1/4 uphill, we had to beware of cyclists who sped down the narrow mountain slope...really dangerous, almost crashed into us. Abraham and i trekked on the rocky river path that sources from the Dam, and though some pales were a little dangerous and risky, we managed to overcome it and almost reached the wall of the dam. We saw the Organic Farm there too. Then we went down again, this time we trekked up the proper path with Uncle Kit and we passed by the Organic farm again. Finally we reached the dam and walking across the top of the dam, i saw sceneries that is seldom seen by the eyes of man now. No buildings, only a large lake and tall mountains and the misty sky. There is a valley to our right and man...it was really heavenly. You can imagine ancient ships sailing out from there...like in some 武侠片.
There was a peculiar little island in the middle of the lake. I think it was the peak of some small hill before this dam was made. Now its just an island. We rested awhile and ate dumplings that Uncle Kit brought. Water was low...and we were thirsty. Rested for about 45minutes at the picnic tables just after the dam-bridge. Then we made our way down the mountain, bought a bottle of beer at the village shop and then enjoy the evening breeze as we waited for our Light Bus back to Yuen Long. It was light bus 71 i think....
Had dinner at Uncle Kit's place. Showered there as well. Aunt was really hospitable. Cousin Natalie seems really shagged ...she had to help out with Sports day preparations for her house earlier today. Furthermore, she is ill.. rarely see her this worn out. Hope she gets well soon.
Today was Sports Day Finals. Ran 4x100m but never win anything. I ran the 4th batch. Sucks....hard to catch up with those crazy speedsters from my class XD
Mis pronounced Jacqueline's name. She is from 6C and her class people are really friendly. Asked me to go K with them but i had to turn them down because most of my classmates are going to have lunch at Pizza Hut and then watch a movie together. I went for the lunch but skipped the movie because it's epensive and i'm not really interested with that show. Im a comedy man.
So that's all for this week......
...as inscribed upon the runes 10:28 PM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
This is dedicated to my sister, Fides, in hope of her successfully enrolling into a JC with decent results.
There is no point in comparing with others. Does it matter whether others do well or poor, whether they can get into JC or not? What matters is yourself, so compare only with yourself. You are your worst enemy.
Never give up hope. After watching so many episodes of Bleach and Naruto, you don't need me to tell you this. If animes aren't enough, i'm a living example of not giving up. Since failing A maths from Day 1 till my prelims(my prelims got 28/100 F9), i practise on past exam papers as well as refer to a very good guide book until i scored A2 for my A maths. It's even better than my E maths which i got a B3.
For E Maths: Buy a guide book that explains all the formulas as well as detailed examples that explain the formulas and how to apply them. Then practise on past exam papers. Skip assessment books. Practise at least 10 to 15 past prelim papers of other schools and then make sure have each of them corrected or marked according to answer sheet. Anything that you are not clear about, ask your teacher. He/she will be more than happy to help you. Ten year series only after practising on other school's prelim papers.
For Science: Practise ten year series. Guide books are useful too, especially those pocket guide book series. Ten year series is much more effective than other school's exam papers.
For Literature: Love your book. Love your novel. Highlight frequently asked incidents in your novel. Draw a mind map of the plots in your novel. Think about motives, reasons for description and elaborate.
For Geography: Textbook is secondary. Most importatnly, practise on ten year series and NEVER LOOK AT MODEL ANSWER UNLESS YOU HAVE REALLY FINISHED ANSWERING. If you look at it halfway through your answering, you will not learn because what you are doing is actually looking at other people's answer, and not familiarising the thinking process on how to answer it yourself. Very important!
For social studies: I believe there is a guide book of A4 size. Main points are all there. 1)Read through all chapters and remember main points. Don't have to memorise the elaborations to the main points, just need to practise elaborating them in your own words. This way you remember less stuff. 2) Spot 2 chapters you are certain of it appearing and memorise every detail. Read ten year series for tips on essay writing.
Final note: This is your one shot at redeeming yourself. You may have been lazy for the past 4 years. Or you may have been hardworking for past 4 years. It doesn't matter now. What matters is you do well for this test. Like my teacher used to tell me, so what if u score perfect 100% for your prelims. It isn't even O levels. What matters is the real thing. If the real thing screws up, you are really a disappointment. So everytime u feel lazy, think of mum who works hard for us.
...as inscribed upon the runes 5:25 PM
Friday, October 14, 2005
Silent sighs and seething thoughts.
Am i in love or am i not?
If so,
i'm condemned
to the depths of hell.
If not,
why then,
is my heart in knots?
I am a perfect being,
an ArchAngel.
With phantom wings,
i'm Immortal.
Living with mortals,
corrupts my soul.
No longer am i,
pure and gentle.
Life is beautiful,
and so are you.
By these thoughts i damned myself,
to a prison worse than hell.
In this place there is no light,
nor the radiance of Angels in flight.
With their shimmering wings
and pure white gowns,
they float high above me in charming frowns.
I lifted my head and felt the stabbing pain,
Something which i had always supressed in vain.
Must be the light - it's too bright.
My Fallen eyes are meant for darkness and the night.
-Alfred
...as inscribed upon the runes 11:11 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Weeks pass by real fast... they come and go like the whisperings of the autumn breeze, like the never ending shimmers of sunlight passing through the curtain in my room.... shimmer .... darkness...shimmer...darkness....
Although i am still intact and sitting in front of my computer, typing this journal entry, know that i had gone through a tremendous lot this week. I started the week with a bright and cheerful outlook on life. (Start: 100HP)
Now, i think i am lucky to be alive sitting here!
For starters, i have 2 class tests this week.(There is a minimum of 1 each week, and a max of 5) The sad thing is i did real badly for physics again, which really saddens me a lot because i did a lot of calculations the night before and was certain that i can pass it. However out of the 4 questions, i answered only 1 of the MCQ Questions correct! >< The remaining open ended question had 3 parts and i got stuck at the first part, preventing me from attempting the other 2 parts. Therefore i got bashed up pretty badly. (-35 HP)
The second class test was the one on chemistry. Though i managed to finish 95% of the paper before time's up... i made ALOT of careless mistakes....and calculation errors....!!!!! Its so nerve wrecking sitting there staring at your own bloody mess, reminding you of the fool that you are! How i wish i can top the class in Chemistry, my favorite subject of all. At the end, i disappoint myself again by missing the First place by 1 mark. Is this fate? Is this some sort of measure set to restrain me? Grrr.... (-25 HP)
At the beggining of the week, everyone in Form 6 and 7 was given a chance to create a slogan for our school's 40th anniversary. It was some sort of contests and at the end of the week, on thursday, i got a great surprise during CLC lesson: I hit 2nd place! Hmm so the next day i went on stage and recited my poem. It goes:
Upon a hill in Kowloon Bay,
stands Maryknoll in grand display.
While Love reigns our hearts,
perseverance leads the way.
I think i am damn lucky. (+ 40 HP)
Finally, i thank God that he was able to calm me just before morning prayer on friday because i was chosen to start the prayer (in english) once a month. It may not seem so, but i was damn nervous.... but somehow i managed to pull it through with Ryan. ^^ ( +20HP)
So there you go, my week so far.... and tomorrow im going hiking with Nic, Zeon, my cousin Abraham and Uncle Kit. think its gonna be fun! Sport's day the coming monday, just a spectator though. Tuesday a public holiday! yea!!! =)
...as inscribed upon the runes 12:48 AM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Look's like here i am, back in Hong Kong, after 14 years. Unhappy circumstances have forced me to separate from the rest of my immediate family and drop me off here alone. Fortunately, i have really warm-hearted relatives, who really takes care of me. For that, i am thankful. I must remember to repay such a favor one day.
School's been really cool...made new friends and learning from new teachers. The teachers are thankfully much more concerned about the students than themselves. Somehow, i think that God as played a role in every part of my life. It cannot be coincidence that i am back here so i can drop economics(useless subject) and take up physics(which i require for BSc in Earth Sciences) and forcing me to learn mandarin/cantonese.
I'm currently taking 5 subjects. Use of english, Pure mathematics, Chemistry, Physics and Chinese Language and Culture. Of these subjects, i am only confident of scoring an A in Chemistry and Use of English right now. The subjects which i'm struggling now are Physics and Chinese language & Culture. This is because i have only up to GCE O'level Sub-Physics level... and not Pure Physics. Futhermore, the HK syllabus is different from the one in SG. You can say i am having some stress now. It's a really amusing situation i'm in...
Maths is tough....but its still maths. I just need more time to practise them...more time....
I am thinking of staying back after school everyday to practise maths, so i will have a fixed amount of time to practise maths. Then i will go home and do homework + revise all that i've been taught for the day. Only when i have time, will i play games. This is the perfect plan. Please, i pray i have the will to stick to this.
Yesterday was fun. 10 classmates came over to my house and "celebrated" China's National Day with me. Some of us played mahjong while the rest of us watched movies on the TV and computer. Then we went down to the market and bought food for dinner....which was steamboat!!! Laughters and jokes abound and the atmosphere was really cheerful. I did the washing and tidying up after everything but i feel that it's really worth it coz i get to know my friends much better and since they are the ones i will be sticking with for the next 2 years. However, my mum called later on and nagged at me about throwing parties so easily. She doesnt like the notion of me having guests at home. For this i feel sad. I would use another word to describe myself, but i honestly feel sad. I can understand that she is worried about me, but nagging and threatening justs pisses the both of us off. I wish she can be reassured and i can play my part well. I wish she would give me encouragements. I wish she would stop worrying...
But things don't always turn out the way you want them to. I learnt from this lesson, that its better to seek everyone's permsission before doing anything....even though i'm already past 18. Physics test on the Projectile Motion chapter on Tuesday. I hope i will be prepared for it!! Really want to score well for that because i am really weak in physics and i don't want to let mum, grandpa and uncle william down.
Chem test on thursday, i hope to top the class. I have a potential competitor in class. He is good ;)
...as inscribed upon the runes 6:10 PM
